Chasing After You

Chapter 38

Chapter 38

Aqua

Beau dragged me outside the campus. Nang bitawan niya ako ay agad akong lumayo sa kanya.

"What are you doing?" I asked him in disbelief.

Ang gulo-gulo niya!

Ang sabi niya, pagbalik niya sa academy ay magpanggap na lang kami na hindi magkakilala. He said that it is better that way. He said that we should let each other go. It's all on him! It's his words! It's what he wants!

"What are you doing, Beau?!" I shouted.

Nagulat ako nang bigla niya akong yakapin. The familiar warmth made my tears fall crazily.

Mahina ko siyang tinulak palayo. "You're confusing me." I told him.

"I know..." he said in a small voice. "I'm sorry."

Panay ang palis ko sa mga luhang lumalandas sa aking pisngi.

I'm stronger than this.

"What do you want?" I asked him directly.

I looked at him. His eyes were bloodshot.

"I want you back." he said without inhibitions.

Napailing agad ako. "You don't, Beau... Because the way I see it, you just don't want competition. You just hate losing... Just how you hated it when you lost your position to Kairon. You don't want me back, you just don't want to lose me to someone."

Kitang-kita ko ang galit niya nang makita niya kung paano ako hawakan ni Royce. I know he hated it.

Na-realized ko lang na paano kaya kung ako lang ang nakita niya paglabas niya roon sa pintuan? Would he still drag me here and ask me for a comeback? Or will he ignore me, just like how he planned it?

"That's not even it, Theandra!" giit niya.

"Ano ako sa tingin mo? Margin? Mag-aadjust ng mag-aadjust sa kung anong gusto mo?!" hindi makapaniwalang sabi ko.

He just never considered my feelings.

"Hindi mo na ako mahal?" he asked.

Bullshit ka, Beau Patrick Santiago! Napaka bullshit mo!

Alam na alam niya talaga. Alam na alam niya ako.

"Why do you think na pababalikin pa kita sa buhay ko?" I asked him. I won't lie to his face. "Oo, mahal pa kita... Pero hindi ibigsabihin no'n ay babalikan na kita."

Napahinto siya roon.

"Ilang beses, Beau. Ilang beses kong sinabi sa'yo na mahalin mo lang ako... But you just keep on pushing me away."

Eventually, you need to ask yourself... How many times are you going to put yourself and your heart through this? What's it gonna take?

And then you have to make a decision.

"Bago mo iwan ang isang tao, dapat sigurado kang iiwan mo na talaga siya... Kasi hindi lahat papayag na pabalikin 'yung umalis na." I said and walked away.

If he thinks that I'm some kind of trophy that he needs to win, well then he's wrong.

Nilakasan ko ang loob ko hanggang makapunta sa comfort room. Doon ko iniyak ang lahat.

Andy learned about it and he immediately went to me.

"I'm proud of you... Hindi ka na marupok." aniya sabay abot ng panyo.

Naglalakad na kami ngayon sa hallway nang maalala ko si Royce.

Oh shit!

Agad akong tumakbo pabalik sa opisina ng Head Mistress. I'm not even sure if his there but I'm taking my chances.