Lost in you

Chapter 27

Aim's POV

I'm emotionally shattered.

My life became a mess after Vain broke up with me. I don't know what to do anymore. I lost my reason of living now.

I'm in pain and devastation while crying and drinking some alcohol. Ilang araw na akong nagiinom at ilang araw na rin akong lasing.

I don't why but I can't feel the tiredness in my body, it seems like I feel numb at this point. Hindi ako makaramdam nang pagkapagod o pagkantok pero . . .

Pero ramdam na ramdam ko yung sakit sa mga oras na to . . .

I suddenly hear my phone ring and it was my Mom calling.

I just ignored it and just takes another bottle of beer. Sila ang may kasalanan kung bakit ako nagkakaganito ngayon. All my life I followed every single thing they want me to do. I went to the school that my parents decided, I even chose the course my parents want me to take. Lahat sinunod ko basta sinabi nila because alam ko na lahat nang iyon ay para sa ikakabuti ko lang din naman.

Pero bakit kailangan humantong na pati panghabangbuhay kong kaligayahan sila pa ang mamimili?

Why do they have to dictate my heart to love a girl that I knew would never happen!

"Bobo mo rin kasi Aim eh. Why did you agreed to that arrange marriage in the first place? Ang tanga tanga mo para pumayag don!" I said angrily to myself.

Naalala ko pa nung tumungtong akong eighteen nang sabihin sakin ng parents ko na ikakasal ako kay Julia. I was very shocked at that moment because I don't know what to decide pero lumamang parin sa akin yung ideyang dapat kong sundin ang decisions ng mga parents ko that's why I agreed to that arrange marriage. Pero yung mga time na yon ay hindi ko pa kilala si Vain.

Not until I reached first year college. That was the time I met Vain in a National bookstore. I was about to buy Jacob a book when I saw Vain reading the last copy of the book that jacob wants me to get. Dun ko napatunayan na totoo ang Love at first sight. Alam niyo yung tumigil yung paligid at para akong tanga na nakatulala lang sa pigura niya na nakatayo at nakasandal sa isang shelf, ganun yung nangyari sakin. Naalala ko pa na nahihiya ako lapitan siya non at sabihin na kailangan ko yung librong hawak hawak niya kaya ang nangyari ay si Vain ang nakapansin sakin.

He asked me if I am going to buy the book he is currently reading and I said yes pero kapag natapos niya nang basahin yung libro sabi ko sakanya. Hindi naman siya pumayag at ibinigay agad sakin yung libro, hindi niya naman bibilhin yon at binabasa niya lang dahil favorite niya yung author.

Natulala naman ako nun at di alam ang gagawin hanggang sa I found myself buying the book. Pero hindi ko iyon naiuwi. Ang nakakatawa pa ay ibinigay ko pa yun kay Vain. Binili ko para sakanya.  Ginayuma ata ako ni Vain kaya ko nagawa yon. Halos magtampo pa nga si Jacob sakin dahil hindi ko nabili yung pinapabili niya pero wala sakin yon dahil masaya ako na nagkasundo ndo ang mga landas namjng dalawa ni Vain.

And that time I already knew I was in love. I can't get out of Vain inside my head, his innocent face keeps popping and bothering me. Lagi pa akong kinikilig pag naalala ko yung pag ngiti niya nung binigay ko yung libro sakanya. Para akong tanga nung mga panahon yon baliw na baliw kakahanap kay Vain because I want to see him and learn more about him.

Hanggang sa I met him again and I do think that is what destiny wants to happen. Hindi ko na pinalampas ang panahon at kinuha ko na agad ang number niya at niligawan siya.

Everyday is a happy day everytime I receive a text message from him. Kinukumpleto niya ang araw ko. Dun ko na napagtanto na I found my reason of living and my inspiration on everything I do.