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It's been hours and we're only the customers left. Jahiem and I are just talking about some random stuff, but it's so hard to maintain a conversation with him since I do most of the talking and he just listens. Ang hirap pala bumuhat ng conversation, hindi ko nga alam kung saan nanggagaling ang kadaldalan ko ngayon.
"Then what happened?" I smiled at his question.
I carry out the whole conversation, but it's fine. I do appreciate people who listens well. For someone who has been enclosed inside their sturdy four walls for a long time then having someone beside me who genuinely shows interest on their pointless rants or funny stories, I find this heartwarming. This is comfort.
"I cried for three weeks straight." Ngumiti ako ng tipid at yumuko. I'm talking about my first and last dog who died when I was 13 years old. Hanggang ngayon namimiss ko pa rin siya.
"Sorry to hear that." Ito ang topic namin kanina pa. Mukhang hindi siya mahilig sa dogs pero nakakatuwa kasi nakikinig pa rin siya sa akin. "You like dogs?"
"I love them!" Napahampas pa ako sa lamesa. Hindi ba kasi obvious? Nakakaloka naman 'tong si Jahiem. Kanina pa nga ako kwento nang kwento tungkol sa mga aso, alaga ko man o hindi.
"Why don't you get one again?"
"Ayaw ko na," Sumandal akong muli at tumingin sa labas. "Trauma."
"Takot kang mawalan?" Sounds like a deep question though. Natatakot ako kasi baka kung saan pa 'to mapunta.
"Ulit." Sagot ko na lang.
It's not easy to lose someone you love whether it's a person or a pet. Could be something too, like your passion or motivation. It's not easy to lose those kind of things.
In my case, I already have lost everything. My mom died and my dad drifted away. I've lost my dog. I've lost my friends, even the best ones because I failed to reach out. I've lost Greno, the only person who accepted who I really am aside from my Geema. And the worse? I've lost myself so I'm slowly losing my will to live too.
I watched how the lightning struck out of nowhere, illuminating the utter blackness of the sky. Maya't maya ay napapatalon ako sa gulat sa sobrang talim ng mga 'to. Buti na lang walang kasamang kulog.
"Takot ka sa kidlat?" I noticed how I almost snuggled to Jahiem while were walking down the alley. Pauwi na kami ngayon.
I cleared my throat and distanced myself. Napangisi siya. "No?" I tried to play it cool, but it didn't work. Mukhang observant ang isang 'to.
"It's fine, we all have fears." He shrugged. I noticed he's such a quiet person, a very timid one. Isang tanong, isang sagot. It's like he's used with a silent atmosphere. Ako naman, hindi lalo na kapag comfortable ako do'n sa tao. Parang gusto ko siyang kausapin nang kausapin pero ayaw naman makisama. Ang awkward kaya.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Art of Rebellion
AdventureThe Chroniqué is a dissolving freedom club formed by rebellious students of Elysian University. Raised to follow immoral rules, bred to bleed stains of injustice, how far would they go to uncover the truth behind the government's actions?