The Fire Girl: A One Chicago Fanfiction

Chapter 27

"So, you excited to be back?" asked Kelly as he drove us to the firehouse.

"You have no idea. Don't get me wrong, I love our kids but-"

"they drive you crazy?"

"They drive me crazy!" I sighed and Kelly chuckled, "They're damn cute but Ember has been extra affectionate and the twins are just now finally getting on a schedule. With you being gone it was just a lot to do on my own. I couldn't get much done."

"Hey, you got a lot done. I'm so incredibly proud of you."

"Thanks babe."

Once we got to the firehouse, everyone greeted me with hugs, happy I was back. We chatted for a few minutes before I changed into uniform. I decided to head straight to the work out room. I plugged into my headphones and got to work. 4 weeks ago I was cleared for ALL kinds of physical activity (if you know what I mean), but hadn't been able to work out much because I was busy with the kids. I got pretty big when I was pregnant with the twins and wanted to get back into shape. Partially for me, but I had noticed even after I was cleared, Kelly hasn't been very hands on. He wasn't affectionate like that anymore and I don't know why. I assumed it's because of the way I look, I mean it's not very attractive. But it's a huge life adjustment to go from having sex three to four times a week to him barely even touching me.

So I got to work. I was running for I don't know how long before Sylvie walked in. I didn't even notice she was there until she appeared on the treadmill next to me. I slowed down and tried to catch my breath while pulling out my headphones.

"Corin, you know you've been in here for almost three hours right? Everything okay?"

"I'm just...trying to lose some weight."

"Seriously? You look amazing for having twin just 8 weeks ago. You don't need to be working out like this."

"Well Kelly must think I do!" I huffed, sitting down at the end of the treadmill.

"What are you talking about? Kelly loves you."

"He's been weird and hands off since the twins were born. I got it the first 4 weeks, I mean we were both barely sleeping and I couldn't do anything anyway. But even since we've been cleared he's been acting like this. So obviously I'm the problem."

"Have you talked to Kelly about this?"

"God no. I just wanted to fix the problem. I know I'm a mom of three and things are different now, but I still wanna be sexy and I thought I was sexy. But I guess Kelly doesn't see my that way anymore...I'm just somebody he doesn't even want to bother with."

"What the hell?" questioned Kelly as he walked into the room.

Sylvie looked between us awkwardly before standing up, "I'm going to leave you guys to talk."

"So uh," I stuttered awkwardly, "How much did you hear?"

"Enough," he sighed, sitting beside me, "What is the about you being something I don't want to bother with?"

"Kelly, you've been weird every since I had the boys! You barely touch me anymore, so yeah I felt like you didn't want to bother with me. The night I told you I was cleared, you said great, pecked me on the lips and walked away. You made me feel like I wasn't good enough. So why? What is so absolutely revolting about me that you won't have sex with me?!"

"Nothing. You're always sexy to me, some moments you're sexier than others, but I'm never revolted by you."

"Then why are you acting like this?"

"I was wanting to give you space. I know the doctor said your hormonal adjustment or whatever was going to be even more out of wack than with Ember, so I didn't want to push you or upset. Besides, you were always talking about how your tired from the kids all day. I just didn't want you to think I'm some sex maniac who needed you. Believe me, it's been killing me to be so hands off."