I felt cold, as if I was constantly freezing over with every movement I made, laying on the long grass, I found myself staring up at the sky, watching the stars as they shined high in the darkness above, the moon a round orb. I brought a hand up above me, I let my sight focus on my palm while a shot of ice seemed to shoot up my arm, I suppressed a shiver, closing my first slowly I let it fall towards me and land on my chest, the warmth radiating from my hand seeped into my chest and warmed my heart, but as quick as I felt it warm up, it had chilled over once more.
It was soon to be two years since I departed from The Leaf Village, two years I hadn't spoken to Mina-otou; I felt like I had failed him by not speaking to him anymore, how I longed that I could, but I didn't know how to even start. I liked to believe that he was watching over me, but I knew if he was it would be in utter disappointment, I had left the village he loved, why would he even think to be proud of me? I was nothing more than a traitor to The Leaf and that was why I hadn't agreed to an alliance with Konoha, I didn't feel right asking for their aid when I had left so...childishly.
I started to wonder if I had ever truly loved anyone before, Asuna and Ren were talking about how I was to be seventeen and hadn't yet experienced the wonders of love. I didn't know if I was capable of feeling such emotion after all this, but I had a feeling, that deep down, I had loved someone. From their countless stories, I began to realize what I had been feeling all those years and was ready to come to terms with it, but I wasn't ready for the questions that were surely to follow after finding out I had loved him.
Kakashi Hatake
He was my mentor, a friend, my first ever friend in the leaf all those years ago. As a child, I was always looking forward to his training sessions, I would always arrive before he did, he never seemed to mind my constant early arrival, instead he trained with me longer, some times we would have dumplings before he sent me back home. I was new to love and affection, I didn't fully understand any emotion, yet I was certain that what I felt for him, was love, wasn't it? Or could it have been just a simple admiration to someone so strong..
Was is love?
