Lazarbeam Love Triangles!(Fanfiction)

Space

Y/N: Lannan?
(I say holding my door in confusion)

Lannan: Can I come in? Can we talk?

Y/N: Are you going to get mad if I mention another guys name?

Lannan: No, I won't. I'm sorry.
(He closes the door behind him)

He then rushes to me to help me get on my bed.

Lannan: I'm really sorry for getting upset with you. I know you've had a bad day and all. Now can you tell me what happened?

Y/N: well last night after Lachlan drop me off at the house I came inside and I tried to be the quietest I could be and I knocked over a vase taking off one of my heels. when I went to go get the broom and come back I ended up stepping on the huge shard. Baz came down after he heard some noise and saw the cut and decided it was the best to take me to the ER. I knew you we're still drunk so I know I couldn't call you and he was the one that could help at that moment.

Lannan: wow. I feel really bad! How's the pain?

Y/N: it's still pretty painful but not as bad when I first got to the ER. The pain is manageable.

Lannan: I feel really terrible about it. I'm really sorry about everything.
(He leaned in for a kiss)

I went in about 45 percent and withheld myself from going further.

Lannan: everything okay?

Y/N: listen Lannan I really do love you but everything that's going on right now I think it would be for the best if we had a break.
(A tear started running down his face)

I felt so terrible, but I really need some space.

Lannan: I'm really sorry how acted I don't want to lose you though! Please just give me another chance.

Y/N: don't get upset I'm not breaking up with you but I do need some space just some space to think and breathe. I think I want to go visit my mom and my brother for a couple of weeks to get my head screwed right.

Lannan: please don't run away from this! Things will never go back to normal.

Y/N: I promise you when I come back things will be back to normal I think it would just be best if you and I had some time to think about it separately and how we want to come at the situation better.

I felt so bad. Seeing the pain in his face gave me such a heartache. And you can tell he loves me so much from the tears in his eyes. He was so sincere so gentle how he talked to me. At this moment I couldn't be so more confused. I really do love him but I just don't know who I want to be with I'm so torn.

Lannan: I understand my love and if space is what you need then I'll give it to you. When you get back I will be a new man and a better man for you. I promise! When do you leave?

Y/N: I'm not sure.

Lannan: can I see you before you go?

Y/N: of course!

Lannan: will we still talk?

Y/N: we can but not as much as I'd like. That's the point of this whole separation.

Lannan: well I'm going to still text you everyday but if you don't reply I completely understand.

Y/N: thank you hun for understanding this.
(I lean in and give him a kiss)

It was beautiful. I didn't want it to end but I knew I couldn't do this anymore until I figured what I wanted.

It's the day after and I've decided to head out now. I buy my ticket and start the journey of traveling home. I didn't tell anyone I was leaving except Lannan. I left a simple note on my bed for my roommate's so they would be aware of my whereabouts.