I woke up feeling a lot better than last night. i turned and saw mattia sleeping peacefully and got out of bed and brushed my teeth and went to jemma's room.
"hey" she said as i walked in.
"hey" i sighed as i sat on her bed.
"how did you sleep"
"like a baby actually , i was exhausted"
"tbh same. i spoke to jaden yesterday and he said he doesn't know who it could have been but he said he has a security camera in the corridor , near the room so he'll call us over and we can watch it and see" she told me and i was relieved there was a way to know. i have to tell mattia before we go.
"can we go in the evening"
"yeah"
We sat around for an hour and mattia came in at 11:30 am.
"morning guys , how are you feeling?" he asked me.
"better" was all i could say.
"you sure?"
"yeah. i'm gonna go take a shower" i said and walked out her room. I came out the shower and got dressed. I was feeling like shit so i didn't care about what i was wearing:
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I walked back into the room and mattia was sitting on the bed and he looked up at me.
"come here" he said pulling me into a hug. i hugged him back and we pulled away and i was looking up at him and he started to lean in to kiss me and flashbacks of yesterday came back and i quickly moved away.
"what's wrong?" he asked.
"nothing , i need to get some air" i said and i left before he could say anything else. i slipped my shoes on and told jemma i was going to the shop. I went and bought myself an ice cream and ate it as i walked home. i didn't know how to tell him. i know it wasn't my fault but i know he'll be upset, probably not with me but he'll be upset that it happened. i tried to put the thoughts out of my head as i reached our house. i walked in and saw him in the kitchen and quickly went upstairs and went into the bathroom and locked the door. i didn't need to use the bathroom , i just needed to gather my thoughts. i heard footsteps outside the door and then a small knock.
"y/n what's going on" he said gently. i leaned against the door.
"talk to me please" i turned the lock and there he was standing in the door frame. fuck how do i do this. i walked over to the bed and patted the space next to me and he came and sat there.
"i'm sorry" i blurted out and he looked at me in confusion.
"please don't hate me" i said.
"i couldn't hate you even if i wanted to. what happened?" he replied and i took a deep breath.
"yesterday , when i ran inside at the party , i couldn't find the bathroom so i went into the first quiet room i found and it was dark because there were no lights on and i was feeling dizzy anyway" i paused. "well someone came into the room and i asked if it was you and they said yeah.. so i asked him to help me up but he said no and i was confused and then he...he kissed me" i looked up and his face hurt me. his eyes looked sad. "i didn't understand why you would be kissing me when i was clearly ill so i pushed him off and he started rubbing my leg and getting mad at me for pulling away" after i said that sentence his head shot up.
