"baby i'm going now" mattia whispered and i opened my eyes and he bent down and kissed my head.
"bye" i said sleepily and he left for work and i fell asleep again. i was really tired and i didn't know why.
an hour or so later , i woke up again and had the urge to throw up so i ran to the bathroom and got there just in time. after i finished i sat on the floor and wiped my mouth and leaned against the wall. i closed my eyes, i was still so tired even though i'd slept for like 10 hours. i felt weak and dizzy so i stayed sitting on the bathroom floor next to the toilet for a while until i felt okay so i got up and showered and just changed into this:
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i was feeling better so i gave lynx his food and cleaned up a little. i checked the 'clue' app on my phone and my period was due 3 days ago. i might be pregnant. omg. i was excited and nervous at the same time. me and mattia talked about having kids since we were 16. that was 5 years ago omg.
i needed to go to the store to buy lynx's food and some toilet roll and stuff so i went. i got the stuff i needed and then got to the pregnancy tests. i picked up 2 just to be sure and i also got some chocolate raisins because i really wanted them. i paid and the lady smiled at me when she saw the pregnancy tests and said good luck and i thanked her and then left.
when i got home it was like 3pm and mattia wouldn't be back till like 5pm so i had time. i put the shopping away and then the two little boxes were the only things left in the bag. i picked them up and went to our bathroom. why am i so nervous i'm fucking shaking-
i peed on them both and then set them on the counter while i washed my hands and i had to wait 3 minutes. the longest 3 minutes of my life omg. i checked my phone and it had only been 2 minutes. finally the 3 minutes were up and i took a deep breath and my heart was racing as i reached to turn them over. i closed my eyes before i could see them and i was holding them in my hands but i was so nervous. okay come on.
'pregnant'
'pregnant'
"oh my god" i whispered as i smiled and my eyes teared up at the same time.
i am going to have a baby. our baby. a real life baby. i am pregnant with the lomls child. omg.
i sat on the close toilet seat as tears came down my face. millions of emotions were going through me and i wiped my eyes and stared at the tests still in my hand. i'm so happy it's insane but i'm so terrified-
omg i have to tell mattia as well. i thought about how i was going to tell him for a few minutes. i started to find some stuff and soon i heard the front door open so i quickly jumped onto the bed and went on my phone.
"hey" he smiled and walked over to me and kissed me.
"how was your day" i asked him as he sat next to me.
