HE IS MY HUSBAND 2 (COMPLETED)

AUTHOR'S NOTE

A small message from me,

' It becomes difficult to accept the truth when the lies told to you are exactly what you want to hear'

And for me, it's hurt so much. Why do I write? I always asking that on myself, I said; I'm just boring. Sometimes, my answer didn't satisfy me and my mind, so I ask anyone,

And out of the blue, I ask my self why I'm living, why I'm here?

Isa ako sa mga tao, na kulang na kulang sa pagmamahal nang pamilya, ako yung tao na palaging pinagiisipan nang masama.

Nasanay na ako hanggang sa lumaki na ako at tumatak yun sa utak ko, na ako? Isa akong masamang tao. Nagpapatuloy ang buhay ko sa kabila nang mga salitang natatanggap ko, nagpatuloy ako, hanggang sa nakatagpo ako nang mga tao na nagsasabing , 'isa kang mabuting tao', minsan natatawa ako, dahil; mabuti pa ang ibang tao, nakikita ang kabutihan sa puso mo. Pero ang sarili mong pamilya, basura ang turing sayu.

Nasanay na ako, dahilan para tumigas ang puso ko at tawanan na lang ang problemang kinakaharap ko. Nang naglayas ako, yes po, naglayas ako, at napunta ako sa Manila, habang nagtratrabaho ako bilang isang katulong, I am suffering depression, na umabot sa puntong gusto ko nang patayin ang sarili ko.

My family didn't care for me, and I don't care. Psh, who are they?

Yan ang laman nang isip ko, na umabot ako sa puntong sinasaktan ko na ang sarili ko, none of my family or friends know 'bout it. Tinago ko yun hanggang sa natutunan kong tanggapin ang lahat, na ako, walang sinuman ang magpapahalaga bilang ako.

I hate them, they are the reason why I'm like this, they are the reason why I'm here. I hate them, I always be.

In the deafening state of my life, I always tried to not care, because I hate  'em. But, I love God, hindi halata, pero yeah. He's the only one I got in my back.

My message is, 'be thankful for the bad things in life. They open your eyes to see the good things you weren't paying attention to before. Don't ruin today by worrying about yesterday's problem'

Maybe your asking, why this author is being so naive and saying things like this? Anu naman pakialam namin sa buhay niya?

Maybe sinasabi niyo niyan. My point is; many people suffer depression, marami ang nagpapakamatay, ang iba nag-aasawa na lang. Ang iba naman, nalululong sa mga hindi magagandang bagay.

I shared some, some of my suffering to enlighten someone here na nagbabasa, na, maybe we are now at the most depressing stage of our life, feeling so alone, take this a advise or a lesson,

Pain alone is not enough to cause anger. Anger occurs when pain is combined with some anger-triggering thought.

It is more satisfying to feel angry than to acknowledge the painful feelings associated with vulnerability — sometimes, but remember not always.

The type of pain does not matter; the important thing is that the pain experienced is unpleasant. Because anger never occurs in isolation but rather is necessarily preceded by painful feelings, it is often characterized as a ''secondhand'' emotion.

Always remember, many people will hurt you, and you always have to pray and wait until it done, just be strong baby, I know you can too.

— Miss Black