My Secret Affair With The CEO

➿ Chapter 7 ➿

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The telephone rung, I hurriedly picked it up. Excited ako.. May usapan kami ngayon.

' Hi, My Princess. ' I felt that familiar thud of my heart. Boses palang niya nawewendang na ang mundo ko.

God I miss him, it's not enough na araw araw kaming nagkikita.

' Hi. ' I answered with a smile in my face.

' Something came up. ' He's voice was cool and impersonal, I frowned wondering what had happened. ' I won't be able to make it tonight. ' he added.

I felt my heart sink with disappointment. ' Why not ?' I asked.

I should have known better, hindi ako ang priority niya and I will never be. Nabaling ang tingin ko sa dining table. I sighed deeply.

Nasayang na naman yung effort ko, walang kakain ng dinner na pinaghirapan kong ihanda. Hindi parin ako nasasanay kahit maraming beses na niyang ginawa ito.

I took a deep breath, ' So I'll see you nalang sa office tomorrow ? ' clearing my throat, 'Dito ka matutulog ?' I hated myself for it, because it sounded so much as though I was begging for his time .. his attention. But I couldn't help myself for being that.. for acting that way.

' I don't know yet. ' his voice was warm.

I stared at the phone for a few minutes to finally realized that he already hung up without saying goodbye.

God .. ganito nalang ba palagi ? It's been what ? A week ? A month ? Ano ba ang dapat kong i-expect sa kanya, in the first place he made everything clear bago ako pumayag sa set-up namin. I can have him, his body, his money .. I can have everything I want kahit hindi ko hingin kusa niyang binibigay .. bahay .. jewelries .. expensive clothes .. but there is a boundary.. a limitation .. at isa dun ay ...

' no expectations ' at ' oras niya ' hindi ako pwedeng magdemand ng oras niya.

Kaya bakit ako nagkaka-ganito ?

Bakit ako nasasaktan ?

Dapat pa nga masaya ako, diba ? Because I am lucky. Hindi na ako nahihirapang tumulong sa family ko dahil mga binibigay niya.

Yes , it's true .. kami na. Kami na when it comes to sex .. lust .. pleasure .. needs .. but not with the true meaning of the word ' Kami na '.

Ganito lang ang set-up namin sa tuwing kailangan niya ko, kailangan as in kailangan physically ..

I am his sex slave .. tatawag siya, at ako naman dadating or pupuntahan niya ako. I would willingly surrender myself to him and satisfy his needs. I would fill his needs, willingly, freely. Walang hinihintay na kapalit, just as simple as that.

Kahit anong pilit kong isaksak sa utak ko na huwag siyang mahalin, ewan ko ba sadyang tanga lang talaga ako. Mas lalo akong nahuhulog sa kanya. Mas lalo akong nababaon sa pagmamahal ko sa kanya at hindi ko alam kung kakayanin ko pa bang makaahon.

Bobo , ako na nga talaga yun.

Sa office normal lang kami, we act like an ordinary Employer -Employee relationship walang nakakaalam. Walang naghihinala because we don't talk to much pag nasa office. We're distant from each other. Hindi ko sinusuot lahat ng binibigay niya pag nasa office, I only act as kung ano ako before, pero pag kami lang I see to it na maganda ako, mabango and attractive.. seductive .. tempting, deliciously tempting.

Pero hindi ako masaya.

Bakit ganun ?

Diba dapat pag-inlove masaya, makulay, inspired, at ang sarap mabuhay ?

Before I was contented with my life, just me and my family kahit mahirap ang buhay. But now he was necessary to me-

I can see that now, it's so painfully clear. I desperately need him, wala na akong pakialam kung nagiging tanga na ako, kung pakiramdam ko para lang akong parausan. Alam ko pakiramdam ko .. kulang ako kung wala siya, kung hindi ko siya nakikita at hindi na ako mabubuhay kung mawawala siya.

LOVE ? I thought, and laughed at myself. Loving him changed my life. I was strong and now I am weak. When it comes to him I'm weak and vulnerable. Everytime I stared at the mirror, ibang tao na ang nakikita ko. Isang baliw na babae. Hindi nag-iisip ng tama .. tanga ! Ako na ako yun, pero anong magagawa ko nagmamahal lang ako.

I want to be me again. I miss my old self, I don't want to need him like this it's as if I can't survive anymore kung wala siya sa buhay ko.

Pwede pala talaga yun, akala ko dati sa mga movies at pocketbook lang nangyayari itong ganito. Pero totoo nga, and I'm one of the living proof. Totoong nakakabaliw ang love ! Kahit ang sobrang talinong tao nabobobo dahil sa pagmamahal.

Kaya kailangan kong piliting masanay sa buhay na mayroon ako ngayon. Kahit maging impyerno pa ang kahangtungan ng katahangang ito basta ang mahalaga kasama ko lang siya.

I was awakened by a knock. Hindi ko namalayan nakatulog pala ako. I tried to close my eyes again and ignore it. Then I heard it again. Napabangon akong bigla. May susi siya ng Town house pero nakalimutan ko, ni-lock ko pala dito sa loob ng kwarto ko.

Napatingin ako sa alarm clock na naka-patong sa side table ng kama ko. Fvck ! 3am ? Naiinis na tinungo ko ang pinto.

' Goodmorning. ' he said, as I opened the door. His eyes burnt over my body in the thin black lingeree. ' You look good enough to eat for breakfast, do you know that?'

I sprung the door opened, ' alam mo ba kung anong oras palang ?' I hissed, as he walked inside our room.

' Sorry my Princess. Galing ako sa party ng kaibigan ko.'

So yun pala yung sinasabi niyang Something-came-up kanina ! Mas importante pa yung mga friends niya kesa sakin. Hindi ko mapigilan ang magtampo at masaktan dahil dun.

' Are we going to stand here all night ?' He murmured, sliding one hand over my waist and drawing me towards him.

' Bakit ngayon ka lang ?' I asked throatily, hardly able to speak. ' Saan ka ba galing ?'

He studied my face for a moment, ' Questions .. questions.. You're acting like a nagging housewife and I hate it ! ' he chuckled. ' let's get back to bed. '

He started to undress me.

' Missed me ?' He asked softly,

' I thought of you all night, I can see I didn't have that same impact on you? ' nagtatampong tanong ko.

He was rendered silent.

' Hindi mo na kailangan sumagot. ' I said and turned my back on him.

He grabbed my arm and pulled me close to him. And kissed my lips, deep and hard. ' Stop talking please. Just kiss me.' he said, in a hard voice, ' I need you now !'