Camp Echo Falls (Completed)

Chapter 54

Jades POV

My back is against the cold metal as I slide down to the floor. My legs numb as the tears blur my vision, my face feels like it's on fire and my head is pounding.

I hate how he makes me feel, the fire inside my body making me want to do evil things.

And then I remember Will. I have to be with him, I have to keep him happy. I don't want to ruin him because of my stupid, childish, selfish feelings.

My feelings.

What do I even feel towards Leo? Is it enough to destroy my stable relationship. My life long friendship?

I let out a sob as my hands go to my hair, pulling at the roots trying to distract myself from the agonising pain in my chest.

You can't have feelings for him, you have a boyfriend.

You dirty cheat.

Will deserves better, he deserves better than you.

If I break up with him the whole group will hate me, the whole camp will know that I dumped him for the bad-boy. The one boy who will probably get tried of me after one night.

Leo makes me smile, he makes me laugh until it hurts, he makes me feel like I'm alive.

Like I can finally breathe.

"He treats you like shit."

"I don't want any other girl."

"You just wanted to spend time with me didn't you?"

He's a liar, he doesn't want you. He wants your body.

That's not what Will wants, is it?

Why is my head telling me one thing and my heart telling me another? I feel like I'm being pulled by both my arms, in the opposite directions.

God, I hate myself.

Everything about Leo pulls me in, spins me around and then shoves me out again - leaving me wanting more.

I don't hear the kitchen doors open, only the quick footsteps and then the clinking of bracelets as her arms wrap around my body.

"Jade hun," Naomi's worried voice soothes me as she strokes my hair. I cling onto her small body and sob into her shoulder. "It's okay, shhh." Her soft skin makes me feel comforted, her light perfume distracting me from the sweet smell of ice-cream.

"Naomi, I'm so stupid." I cry into her, and she lets me. "It's all my fault."

She sits back and puts her hands firmly on my shoulders. I embarrassedly swipe at my face, sniffling as she looks at me with confident eyes.

"Do not blame this on yourself, you can't control how you feel." Her stern voice hints at forgiveness and I furrow my eyebrows.

How does she know that's what I'm upset about?

She answers my question before I even have to ask it, "I saw Leo leave the back door in a hurry and knew something was up," she smiles faintly, "then when you didn't follow him, I got closer and heard you crying."

I feel the heat rise to my cheeks, I must have been really loud. "I'm sorry." I wipe the back of my hand across my nose before pushing myself off the floor. Naomi stands as well, looking at me concerned as I walk over to pick up the mop.

"Jade come on," she begs but I ignore her and start to clean the floor of my mess. "we need to talk about this." I carry on cleaning but stand to face her, she has her hands on her hips and eyebrows raised.

"Go on then, tell me how bad of a girlfriend I've been." My shaking hands tightening around the mop and I have to bite down on my lip to stop a sob escaping.

Naomi sighs, "Jade you're not a bad girlfriend." My eyes snap up to meet hers. She can't be serious.

She rolls her eyes and then hops onto the counter, "Look, everyone can see you and Will are having a few problems." I feel a tear slip down my cheek, my hands are too weak to get rid of it.

"I don't know exactly what's going on between you and Leo, but I do know that he hasn't looked at a single girl in the same way he's looked at you." I shake my head, moving to the other side of the counter, cleaning the mess there.

"I know what you've heard about him Jade," she chuckles and widens her eyes, "I have too. Not to mention the amount of time I've seen him coming out a different girl's cabin."

"Not helping." I mumble, keeping my eyes on the floor.

"Sorry," she clears her throat, "but he's different around you. I've never a guy so nervous around someone else and I've met a lot of insecure guys." She flicks her hair over her shoulder and I roll my eyes.

He's not that different around me, is he?

"Anyway, you and Will have been friends since we were kids. You've grown up with him, maybe that's a good thing and maybe it's not. But at the end of the day, sometimes relationships are meant to be and other times they're not."

I look up to meet her sad eyes and she tilts her head to the side. The next few words that come out of her mouth make me stop breathing.

"Maybe it's time to try something new?"

The tears fall freely again and she doesn't hesitate to jump off the counter and wrap her arms around me for the second time today. I let the mop fall to the floor and hold her tighter to me.

My voice breaks as I whisper against her, "I don't want to break his heart."

She sighs rubbing my back in small circles, "I know Jade, I know."

I start to wonder how hurt Will would be if we broke up. Then I remember how he speaks to me, how he calls me names and how he shrugs me off when I try to touch him.

His cold touch makes me shiver, almost scared for what he might do. And then another thought comes to my mind, one that hurts far too much for me to believe it.

Maybe I never had his heart to begin with.