Saving Her

Chapter 47

Shawn's POV

Later that night as we are heading home, Sinu looks back at me and smiles warmly as she sees Camila resting her head on my shoulder. It was a long day and a fun filled night, but I know we are all exhausted.

Arriving home, Sinu and Sofi get out of the car, but not before saying goodnight and heading inside. I think they can sense that Camila and I have to have a talk, so they leave us some privacy.

She's still sleeping, I gently try and wake her with not much luck. Deciding instead of waking her, I scoop her up in my arms and carry her through the house, up the stairs and to our room.

Setting her softly on the bed. I walk over to my side and start to unbutton my shirt and remove my hat. I manage to get my dress blues off and change into a T-shirt and sweats before Camila stirs behind me.

"Shawn." She says quietly.

"I'm right here baby." I reply as I walk over to her side of the bed and kneel down in front of her so we are at eye level. I see a faint smile grace her lips and I can't help but return it. This is one of the first nights we've had that we are truly alone with our thoughts.

Sitting up, she guides me to sit next to her as she turns so we are face to face on the bed.

"We need to talk about earlier before we go to bed. I'm not letting you sleep until we talk about whatever is going on up there." She says as she pokes my head.

"I know...." I say in defeat. I know she needs this and so do I.

"You kissed me earlier and said you just wanted to make sure I was real. What was that about?" She asks, wasting no time getting right to the point.

Taking a deep breath, I think about my response. Letting the breath out, I look at her and take the sight of her in front of me in. She's still wearing her dress and heels, her hair flatter on one side than the other from her resting on my shoulder. She looks so pretty in the simplest of ways. Deciding there's no turning back, I answer just as forwardly as she asked the question.

"Honestly Camila, I'm worried. I'm worried that one day you're going to wake up and be scared of me. That you're going to see me like every other guy. That....that you're going to see me like...him."

I let that last thought linger in the air too long before I continue because she looks at me like I just slapped her in the face. "I'm sorry baby, but......none of what's happened between us since the incident has been a normal reaction. You.. we.. we've thrown everyone a curve ball and I guess a part of me is still just waiting for you to be scared of me and leave me." I sigh almost angrily now because I can't even believe I'm thinking this way.

She looks away and I can tell she has tears in her eyes. She lets out a frustrated sigh as she turns back towards me with a look in her eyes, honestly I'm quite scared of. "Nothing about what's happened to me is "normal" Shawn! It never has been. My life has been one big ball of unpredictable and unexpected my whole life!" She says firmly. "Since when did it matter to you what other people thought of our relationship? What people thought about me or you?" She asks. "Did what I say earlier mean nothing to you? Do you not trust me enough to be able to tell you those things and not think I'm a flight risk?" She says louder, seemingly quite annoyed with me now.

There's tension in the air between us as her last questions linger and I process them. Her questions sting like a bee and I know I deserve them none the less. She's more than proven that she's not just some helpless little girl who needs saving all the time.

She's my Mila. My incredibly strong, courageous, gorgeous and talented girlfriend. She's been through hell and back and I've been there every step of the way to see her come out alive and stronger than before.