Saving Her

Chapter 58

Shawn's POV

"I want more Shawn, I'm ready" she says again as I look down at her. I feel her grip my biceps as she looks up at me with determination.

"Are you sure?" I ask, not believing my ears, my heart racing.

"Yes...baby..I'm ready to see if I can handle things going further and not freak out." She says reassuringly.

My heart is soaring, but it's also telling me to be cautious in this moment. I'm a guy, of course I want to have sex with my gorgeous girlfriend, but this isn't your typical "I'm ready" type of situation. This is the my "best friend turned girlfriend was a victim of a sex crime" type of situation. There's so many more things at stake with this type.

Gently pushing some hair behind one of her ears I smile down at her and kiss her forehead. "I hear you baby, and I'm ready if you're ready, but I don't think we should do this now. I mean Mama and Sofi are right downstairs." I whisper.

She takes a few steps back from me like she's been burned before her face contorts, and then she starts laughing. I'm slightly confused and a little worried as she grabs her sides and lets out a hearty laugh.

Walking back towards me she curls her fingers around my face and gives me a brief kiss. "You're right baby. We are definitely not having sex with my family downstairs but can we try something a little more PG-13?" She asks raising a brow at me in mischief.

A wave of relief washes over me as I nod my head yes.

"Help me out of my clothes baby." She states plainly, like it's something we talk about in a regular conversation. I can't help but snort a chuckle in response to her words as she gently glides her fingers down my bare abdomen inflicting a shiver to go down my spine.

"Wh..www..what?" I stutter like an idiot.

Good god Shawn... get a grip.

She smirks playfully as she moves her hands from my chest to around my neck, bringing her body impossibly closer to mine. Whispering in my ear she says, "Help me out of my clothes Canada, not all the way, but I want us to see each other." She drags her lips, placing feather light kisses in her wake as she goes from my ear to the base of my neck. My body acts accordingly as I feel my cheeks flush, my eyes roll back and my pants become extremely uncomfortable.

"God damn Mila, you can't say things like that to me." I whimper as I grab her waist and guide her to the edge of our bed. Guiding her lips back up to mine, I feel her smile against them as I smash our lips together.

Kissing her in this moment feels so different than any other time. I love kissing her always, but this time it feels more uninhibited, more....just more. She grabs my curls in her hands and I let out a quiet groan as she tugs at my hair. In a quick moment I grab her under her thighs and wrap her around my body before gently placing her on the bed.

For a split second she stops to comprehend what's happening before she slams her lips to mine again as she tightens her legs around my waist. "Keep going." She whispers.

I've never been on top before so I'm curious as to how this will go, but I'm going with her in the moment. This feels monumental for us both and I can't help but want to take snap shots of everything we are doing so as to ingrain them in my brain. Every kiss, every touch with her is one that erases every girl from my past; every time I feel her against me it's like a salve cleansing me and making me whole again.

As I move her koala like self further up the bed in one smooth move, she lets her head fall back as she tells me to take her shirt off. Our tongues and lips still dancing with each other as I feel her moan beneath me as I trail my lips and breath to the base of her neck. As I'm kissing her neck, I gently glide my hands down her sides as she shivers in response. I smirk against her skin as she guides my hands under her shirt and I take my time to feel her taut skin under my touch. "So beautiful" I whisper over and over again as she lets me run my hands up her body, removing her shirt in the process to leave her in nothing but a black lacy bra.