Dreams Beyond Love (Albay Trilogy)

Albay 40

(Paalam by Silent Sanctuary) The best to read ChaNigo scene while playing this music.

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"You are no nobody, you are my world, you are my source of strength, MC" Hinawakan ni Joaquin ang aking kamay na agad ko namang binawi at sumimsim nalang ng kape.

Kumuha ako ng donut at kumagat, nakita ko siyang nakatingin lang sa akin habang kumakain ako ng donut.

"Missin' Dunkin' Donut?" Ngisi niya at tumango ako.

"Super" I smirked.

"Like what you have said, you aren't happy with your engagement with Inigo then better talk to him and might as well cancel the engagement" Suhestyon ni Joaquin.

Kumunot ang noo ko at napaisip, maari ngang hindi na talaga ako masaya at napipilitan nalang sa relasyon namin pero dapat ko na bang aminin kay Inigo ang lahat?

"It's just the matter of your happiness and miserableness, you choose" Aniya at naghalukipkip at sumandal.

"You need to choose now, hindi pwedeng mabuhay ka na kasama niya nang hindi masaya at napipilitan lang, huwag mong ikulong ang sarili mo lungkot at pagsisisi" Aniya pa at bumuntong hininga ako.

Perhaps Joaquin is right. I need to choose not just for the present but for my future, ano nalang ang mangyayari sa akin kung papakasalan ko si Inigo nang hindi bukal sa loob ko? Paano naman ang mararamdaman niya sa oras na ayaw ko na? Kung ikakasal ako sa kanya at hindi ko na kayang pilitin ang sarili ko ay hihingi ako ng annulment but, God! That will be way too long bago kami mapaghiwalay.

Sumandal ako sa backrest ng upuan at hinilot ang aking sentido, I need to think! I need to decide and act now before everything goes too late.

"Think carefully, choose the wiser decision, think of the consequences of your final decision" Pumikit ako nang mariin.

I cannot live with a miserable life when I choose Inigo even if he's kind and sweet and very gentleman. I just don't feel something special for him, I don't feel any love for Inigo and maybe the best thing to get rid of my regrets and wretches is to breakup with him.

"Jesus! It took nine years before I realized that my future will be destroyed if I followed my parents' plans for me to marry Inigo!" Tinukod ko ang aking dalawang siko sa mesa at hinilamos ang mukha.

Napagtanto ko na masisira ang buhay ko kapag nagpakasal ako sa lalaking hindi ko mahal at hindi ko na kayang mahalin.

He was my first love but there it's just so impossible to choose him at the end dahil hindi lahat ng unang pag-ibig ay nananatili.

Inigo is not for me, I'm just a pain in the ass to him, I can never make him proud of me or in every decisions that I made in life. I can't even help him a bit on resolving his political problems or even on our house problems! Tapos mag-aasawa ako? God! I'm too helpless and naïve from everything that I've done even before.

I can't even solve my own problems like this, kailangan may magbubukas pa ng mata ko para matauhan ako, siguro kasi sa buong buhay ko ay pamilya ko na ang gumagawa ng mga daan na tatahakin ko at sila rin ang gumagawa ng solusyon sa mga problema ko.

"Ang sabi nila kung saan ka masaya doon ka mag-susucceed, look at your successful career, masaya ka kaya nagtagumpay ka. Ganon din sa pag-ibig, kung kanino mo gusto doon ka sasaya" He has a point.

Choose whoever or whatever your heart desires.

Kung sino ang gusto ko ay doon ako sasaya. Ang saya ang may kapalit na lungkot at 'yon si Inigo, sa magiging kaligayahan ko ay siya namang magiging kalungkutan ni Inigo.