Lost In You

Chapter 32

Gabby's POV:

It's been a month since I've been clean and life was going great. Yeah I wish. I have been clean for a month but my life has been anything but great. I was doing good in school, but my social life has completely disappeared, when I wasn't getting tutored after school, I was seeing a therapist or just being with Reagan who's been acting weird ever since I got cleaned. We had to talk about everything that happened and she was able to explain to me how bad her marriage really was and I couldn't believe she stayed with him as long as she did. Getting physically and emotionally and sexually abused but still staying was something I never really understood until she explained how terrified she was every single day and how she had to walk on eggshells around him because she never wanted to upset him. Christmas break was approaching and I was more than ready to be home with my dad. Both him and my mom started seeing a counselor to try and fix what happened, but they were slowly losing faith in their religion. My dad didn't trust her rightfully so and they both stopped going to church. Her because she felt like that would make my dad happy and him because he felt like it was the only way to not murder Kane for breaking up his marriage. And me well I stopped going to church since Junior year in highschool so nothing new here. My mom apologized to me over and over again about everything and even after I forgave her she was still spoiling me and I wasn't going to complain. They both put their money and energy into me and made sure that I was always safe and that nothing was going to happen to me and Reagan thought it was the funniest thing ever. Robert and Kevin are still looked up, Kevin is serving a 10 year sentence while they have Robert on not just the kidnapping charge but also murder, drugs, and a few unregistered weapons. It Wasn't until after I got clean did It really start sinking in that I spent two weeks in a dog cage next to a dead girl and when I realized it I couldn't stop throwing up.

"Gabby I swear to God if you eat another bag of chips I'm going to kill you" I looked up to see Kenna watching me with a serious look on her face. I don't think she's ever met someone who ate as much junk food as I did and it was high key pissing her off.

"What else am I supposed to eat then?" I questioned as I kept on eating.

"We have food in the fridge just try something, anything" she begged and I rolled my eyes.

"You have a bunch of healthy snacks in there and they're all disgusting." I replied as we heard the door open. She didn't have time to respond as Reagan ran past us and into the bathroom. We followed her in there and I lost my appetite as I heard her throwing up. Kenna looked at me as if I'm suppose to do something and I made my way over and rubbed her back. Her hair was already in a bun so I didn't have to hold it back. When she was done, she brushed her teeth and went into the living room, she took the rest of my chips and started eating.

"Unbelievable. You're ruining her eating habits Gabby." Kenna said looking at us with shame. I laughed and Gabby shrugged and kept on eating. She started throwing up a lot lately because she was getting a cold but refused to go see a doctor.

"Are you sure you want me to meet your parents?" Reagan asked nervously.

"Well technically you already met them." I said watching Kenna switch through the channels.

"Well yeah but what if they ask how we met? I don't want them to think I took advantage of you." she said and Kenna started having a coughing fit causing me to laugh.

"You guys aren't even officially dating or anything so" Kenna said and we both got quiet. That topic is something we've been avoiding. We haven't had sex since Thanksgiving but we did everything else like a couple. We've never talked about it and honestly I don't even know if reagan actually wanted to be with me. All I know is neither one of us is talking to other people, like a silent understanding.

"It'll be fine." I said reassuring her and she threw me a fake smile. She looked at me and laid down. I rubbed her feet and we all started watching TV together until she got up again and threw up.

"You should really go to the doctor's, at least they can prescribe you something for it." I said when she sat back down and she waived me off.

"I'll be fine." she said getting up and going up to her room. I stayed for a little bit before walking upstairs and laying down next to her. She snuggled up to me and I wrapped my arms around her.

"Do you want to talk about it?" she asked and I looked at her asking what she was talking about.

"Us. do you want to talk about us?" she asked, looking at me and I shrugged.

"We can." I said and she looked away. "You don't have to rush into anything Reagan trust me. Whenever you're ready I'll be here. Just don't keep me waiting for too long you know I'm impatient." I said she laughed and pecked my lips. We spent the rest of the day cuddling and enjoying each other's company and I was happy.