A New Chapter (BNHAxReader)

Chapter 52: Mental breakdown

I woke up the next morning feeling shittier than how I felt the night before. Chi was still in bed when my alarm went off, so I sluggishly and quietly gathered my hero costume before I went into the bathroom to get ready. I dropped my stuff on the floor and leaned against the bathroom sink's counter, staring at my reflection in the mirror. I had dark circles around my eyes, and my hair was a horrible mess. I didn't want to attempt to deal with it cause it was such a rat's nest, I knew that it was going to take forever to comb out. A glare grew on my face the longer I stared at myself. Before I knew it, my reflection started to smirk and stand up right instead of leaning on the counter. My expression changed from a glare to a confused one as my reflection kept on smirking.

My reflection then said, "I finally was able to manifest your vision." then paused to laugh.

"What?" I asked in a whisper.

It kept on smiling, "I'm glad that you can finally see me. It has taken me so long to make it so you can see me rather than just hear me."

I started to get a little angry as I hissed quietly, "I don't need to see you; just hearing you is enough."

My reflection pouted and crossed its arms, "Just hearing me isn't enough. I want you to see me." It then went back to smirking, "So, now that you can see me, I want you to know that you look uglier than usual."

I sighed and whispered, "I know."

"I'm sure that Chi has to agree too. I mean, look at your hair, your face, your body...I mean, just look at you in general. You're so fucking ugly."

I punched the counter lightly, "I know..."

"Kill yourself. Do everyone a favor and not exist anymore. I think that I may be able to help now that I can manifest your vision. I can erase your quirks then it will be able to work."

I shook my head slowly, "I can't...I promised I was going to get better."

It leaned over the counter and said in a threatening tone and pounded on the mirror, making a thud, "No! You're going to die! Do everyone a favor and do it! You can't go on living, and neither can I! Just fucking do it! No one loves you! No one will notice you're gone, not even your poor husband!"

I shook my head, "I can't."

It repeatedly pounded on the mirror, "Do it! End your suffering! End my suffering! Fuck it, end everyone's suffering of your existence!"

I got angry and punched the mirror, shattering it into hundreds of pieces as I yelled, "Shut up!" Then crouched down and rested my head on the cupboard as I kept my hands on the counter as I panted. I tapped my head on the cupboard door as I felt like I was losing my mind. I then heard Chi come bursting into the bathroom.

"What happened? What's wrong? What's the matter?" he asked frantically as he ran to my side and crouched down, putting his hand on my back.

"It's nothing." I said through gritted teeth.

"Babe, the mirror is broken and your right hand is bleeding. Something clearly is wrong." he said in a worried tone.

I looked to him with my eyes feeling like they were burning out of my head, "I said it's nothing." I persisted.

He gasped quietly before pointing out, "Your eyes are red. I mean, the whites of your eyes are red, not just your iris." he then stammered, "Sh-should I take you to the hospital?"

I stood up, leaving him crouched down on the floor to rinse my bleeding knuckles off under the faucet, "It's fine, don't worry about it."

He stood up next to me and exclaimed, "When you tell me to not worry about it, of course I'm going to worry about it! Just explain what happened!"