The Cursed Guardian

Chapter 11

"I don't want you to be my warrior. You are WEAK!"

He flatly said before my face. I was stunned. I did not expect him to reject me right away. Even Raeco and everyone was shocked.

My eyes are getting hot. He make me feel unwanted. He does not want me. Only my family loves me and they are gone. I was expecting him to help me become stronger, just like what Raeco said. But it's the opposite.

"Your my Guardian. You can't abandon me." I bow down as tears stream down my cheeks. "And you're the only one I have right now."

Yeah, and I'm hoping that my Guardian will become someone like my family.

"Believe me, I can. If you continue to be miserable. You're pathetically weak!"

"Your words cuts like a knife, don't you know that?" Toki ask not caring that he is talking to a Spirit Guardian.

"You should be nice to her." Caren said with sympathetic eyes on me.

"You're not weak." Shaun taps my head. "You save a village remember. Oh but you passed out-" He did not finished his words because Caren punch his shoulder.

"Your not helping!"

Everyone is telling me I'm weak. I'm a burden. I'm not strong. Im just a coward. My demons are now slowly eating me whole again.

You should not let the pain live in you.

You should live in the pain to make you stronger.

. . .Use it as your motivation.

Raeco's words hit me. I wipe my tears and face my Guardian as I held my head high.

"Then, teach me how to be your warrior!"

"If really want to BE MY WARRIOR, you must defeat your self." His eyes are challenging me.

Defeat my self?

How can I defeat my self? Is he talking to me with riddles? I was confused. What does he want me to do to be his Warrior?

"See? You don't even know how to be yourself." His words laced with mockery.

Then he disappears in front of us. He really mean it when he said he can leave me.

"You  know what," Toki scoffs, "he is rude for a Guardian. My Guardian trains me hard when I met him."

"Don't worry, a Guardian never abandons his Warrior. After all you are his vessel. He can't find another Warrior." Raeco assures me.

"But what does he mean defeating my self?"

"I think," Caren holds my hand,
"it is because you are doubting yourself worth. You don't believe in yourself. "

Yeah, she is right. I don't believe myself because those people who bullied me told me that I was stupid. I don't trust myself because people always have a comment on what I can do. But I can't help it! That is what other people made me believe.

I guess that is the affect of bullying.

"You're strong, remember? You did not survive for nothing." Raeco puts his arms around my shoulder. " Now, let's go back to our quarter and prepares for our mission."

~ Meanwhile ~

"Ahhh!!"

I throw the goblet on the floor. How can they not find the sword? Those pathetic Shallows. They are so slow! The councils already knows about it. I need to find it first. I did not sacrifice my soul for nothing!