Running in circles(Post Malone Story)COMPLETED

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Normally after a call with my Mom I've got some clarity but today I'm just as confused as I was before the call. I know I have trouble trusting people and that stems from Austin leaving and high school. I climb the stairs to the bus as Austins flys around the corner. I put my head down and squeeze past him. He just scoffs at me. I grab my camera and me and Adam walk side by side to the venue.

I kept myself to myself for days, didn't really mingle, didn't sit in the greenroom and I still hadn't spoken to Austin. I was confused and I just retreated into myself. I didn't want to socialise. I didn't want to see him having fun while I was miserable. I was completely aware that this was my own doing but burying my head seemed like the easiest way out. I just wanted to finish up the tour and go home to my apartment.

I was lay in my bunk when I heard banging. I'd taken to sleeping to the bunk furthest away from Austins room to reduce our interactions. I peeked my head out of my bunk to see Austin with a body attached to his front, legs wrapped around his waist and lips attached to his. I suddenly felt sick. I pulled my knees up and curled into a ball feeling sorry for myself.

The next morning I got up super early I wanted to get off this bus. I had hardly slept all night and that wasn't just because I could hear them having sex. I needed air, go for a walk maybe. I quickly changed in the toilet but bumped straight into something as I walked out. I was looking down at Austins feet. I apologised and kept my head down. I tried to walk around him but everytime I moved so did he. It would have been funny if it wasn't awkward. If I hadn't fucked it up.

"Baby come back to bed" I slipped past him without a word and walked as fast as I could out of there. Hearing him calling my name after me. I squoze my eyes shut and slumped on the nearest bench.

I had no right to be annoyed. I knew this. But it also wasn't fair to make me be on the same bus. I was still angry and hurt. I didnt want to hear him having sex with someone else.

I made my way over to the boys bus and knocked on the door. Bobby opened the door and looked down at me frowning. I fidgeted with my phone in my hand. He looked at his watch and towards Austins bus then back to me. He motioned for me to get on and he closed the door behind me.

"What are you doing up?" he ruffles my hair

"Couldn't sleep" I shrug

"Yeah I can tell, Regan you look like shit"

"Thanks" I laugh

"You are most welcome. Where you been kiddo. I've not seen you since..."

"Just not been feeling myself, I'm not normally into partying anyway" I didn't want to bring up that night up.

"Hmmm okay. Nothing to do with the game of truth and dare?" he collapsed on the couch and patted for me to sit.

"Not directly"

"Regan, he waited for you to talk to him. He gave you space. Then Ash was in town and they just started chatting last night" I felt like he'd stabbed me through the heart with red hot pokers. It was Ashlen this morning. His ex that he was with since he moved to LA. "He wasn't going to wait for you forever. What are you scared of?" I tried to compose myself quickly not wanting him to be able to tell that I wasn't keeping it together.

"I'm not scared. I just didnt want us to ruin everything. But I seemed to have done that myself anyway" I forced a chuckle "I'm happy for him, she's beautiful. They suit"

"You know your beautiful too, right" he nudges me

"Shut up" I nudge him back

"Well you've got quite a few admirers so I can't be wrong" he chuckles as he throws a blanket over us