"About what?" he sounds harsh but his eyes look at me softly.
"Us"
"There isn't a us. You put a stop to that" he huffs
"I know but" I start shuffling in my spot "I promised I would tell you"
"Tell me what?" he crossed his arms as he looked down at me
"That I do love you the way you love me and I'm sorry it took me so long to admit it" the tears where streaming down my face. His face looked shocked and his arms fell to his sides.
"Baby, what are you doing outside" Ash"s manicured hand slid down his chest as she walked down the stairs
"Just talking" he managed to stutter, his eyes wide and his breathing irregular.
"Oh it's you" she looked at me up and down
"Well I'll see you tomorrow or something" I swallowed hard and backed away
"Regan..." he called to me
"Come on baby I'm cold, come back inside" She turned him and pulled him up the stairs.
I carried on walking to the boys bus. I was proud of myself for actually admitting my feelings but I had a feeling of dread, that he didn't want this anymore. I had to believe that he did or what was the point? He told be literally minutes ago that he loved me, surely that meant something. I just had to wait till we spoke next. I climbed the stairs to the bus, smiled at them all but took myself to my room. I climbed into bed and cuddled up to Dave. I checked my phone and nearly swallowed my tongue.
Austin 🤠
Did you mean what you said?
Regan 😻
Yes. I'm just scared
He didn't reply. I just curled up and tried to sleep.
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I stayed in my room for the majority of the day. I took a shower and actually took care of myself. I had a pamper, washing and deep conditioning my hair, used a face mask and actually did my hair and makeup. I needed to make sure that I was making the effort. Needed him to pick me over Ash, even after all my bull shit. I pick my outfit carefully, laughing as I take a quick picture and send it to Jodie. I made my way to the venue my camera round my neck and a uneasy smile on my face. I found Adam pretty quickly in the corridor talking to some of the tech guys
"You look better that I've seen in a while" he chuckles
"If that is your way of giving a compliment, no wonder your single" I quip
"What's your excuse?" he chuckles
"I'm too scared I'll get hurt" I shrug. His face drops realising I'm being serious. He pulls me in for a hug. "Stop it or I'll cry"
