+Stephanie's Pov+
I had come upstairs after we were all done talking about everything. I was stressed and I just wanted to lay down but I couldn't. Gus came in the room after awhile and sighed.
"Lay down."
He closed the door behind himself and I did what he said.
"Turn onto your stomach."
I turned and just laid with my face on the bed. He came to me and started to massage my shoulders.
"You are tense as fuck." "I know. I'm just worried things won't go right again." "You've gotta calm down Stephanie. Just let go."
He kept massaging me and I did start to calm down more. His hands felt amazing going across my body and applying pressure to all the places I felt knotted up.
"You have to breathe. And trust that we can all do this." "I do trust you guys.." "Then stop being so tense then."
He kept putting pressure exactly where it was needed and I loved every second of it. It also calmed me down a lot. He told me to flip over onto my back so I did. When I did he grabbed one of my legs and pushed it towards me. Taking the stress out of them. I sighed and let him do what he was doing. Not moving at all. Just letting my body relax. He did it to both of my legs and it felt amazing.
He then stopped and I just laid there. After awhile he had me turn back around and he balled his fists up then started to rub into my back as hard as he could. Of course it felt like heaven. He told me to sit up when he was done so I did. He moved some hair from my neck and I started getting goosebumps.
"Breathe in and breathe out."
I breathed in and out and kept doing it slowly. He kissed on my neck and started leading them down the top of my back. I sighed and he grabbed my hand. He started to rub into it and I let him. He did it to the other hand then laid my hands into my lap for me.
"Do you feel better now?" "Much better." "Good. Now you get some sleep and I promise, tomorrow we will end this. Okay?" "Okay."
I smiled tiredly and laid down in bed. He wrapped his arms around me and I started to fall asleep.
+Lil Peep's Pov+
I got up when I seen Stephanie was fully asleep. I went to check on Haidyn and she was still asleep. I smiled to myself, kissed her on the forehead and went to Melanie's room. Her and Aiden were fast asleep in bed, too. After I checked on them I went downstairs. Goth, Tracy and Bexey were all at the kitchen table talking. I went to sit with them.
I said,"Where'd the girls go?"
Bexey said,"They all went to bed. How's Stephanie?" "She's okay. But, I can't wait to get this over with so she can finally not have anything to worry about. She thinks this whole thing is her fault." "Well I hope she knows that it isn't."
Goth said,"Somebody got a lighter?"
Tracy gave one to him and Goth lit the blunt he had. They started passing it around and I was staring off into space. I just hoped everything would be okay.
+Stephanie's Pov+
I acted asleep so I could get outside. I needed to just clear my head for a minute. I went to grab some weed, blunts and a lighter so I could smoke. I went to check on Haidyn first to see how she was and she was sound asleep. I then went down the stairs and snuck out the front door. I went around the back of the house and went by the pool. I sat down and rolled up then started smoking. As I was looking at the pool water I thought about how our plans would go. I was ready to end all the problems and just have my own life back. I wanted my family to have theirs.
I didn't want anymore roadblocks on my behalf. I just wanted things to feel normal again. I continued to smoke and then started to think about Aiden. The look on her face when she knew it wasn't fully over. I was surprised Melanie wasn't mad at me, too. I couldn't mess things up again. I couldn't let anything slip. When I was almost done with the blunt I heard Gus's voice behind me.
"Why are you not in bed?" "I'm not going to sleep right now. The massage was fucking amazing though."
He laughed a little and I smiled while I continued smoking. He came and sat next to me then grabbed the blunt and put it out.
I said,"Gus, what if we just did nothing? What if we just let it go and let them strike first. What if..you just go on tour and do normal shit with the guys and you chill. Smoke, drink, make more music. Just do you for a while." "No. I'm not leaving them here with you by yourself." "Yes. I think you should just go. They won't do anything." "Yes they will. And I'm not going until someone's dead." "Look at me."
He looked at me and I looked in his eyes.
"Gus, listen to me and listen to me closely. I will be fine. Aiden might continue to be pissed at me but, I think I can fix things with her. I just...want you to feel normal for once. I want to." "I'm fine with the way my life is Stephanie. I still feel normal." "This shit isn't normal Gus. It's not. Your life is music. You need to get your head back into that for awhile." "Don't tell me what I need to do. We're doing this Stephanie and that's the last of it." "No that's not the last of it. We're not going through with it. I said me and everyone else will be fine." "You don't know that. You can not look me in my face right now and tell me that you know for absolute fucking sure that everything will be alright. Cause you don't."
I could see that he was getting pissed and I knew I didn't want to fight with him before he left.
"Gus. I'm going to bed. I don't wanna argue with you." "Fine. Goodnight."
He looked towards the water and I kissed him on the cheek.
"I love you. And I hope we don't have to be mad at each other."
He looked at me and said,"I'm not...I'm not mad at you."
I smiled slightly then stood up and went to bed.
