Amethyst's
You know that certain feeling when you realized your phone suddenly went missing? Those seconds you spend just standing, your brain that seems to malfunction for a very brief moment and your heart dropping as if you were riding a roller coaster? I'm experiencing that feeling right now.
"A-Amethyst."
I didn't know what to reac— no, I couldn't make myself react. The amount of betrayal I get just from this one man is unbelievable. Does he think I'm stupid? A girl he can always make a fool out of? Ayun lang ba ako sakanya all this time?
Kaagad niyang inalis ang babae sa hita niya at nag-madaling lumapit sa akin. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at ang katawan ko, bigla nalang nag-kusang hampasin palayo ang kamay niya. "Don't you ever touch me with your filthy hands ever again." who knows where those hands have been.
"Calm down, let me exp—" let him explain? As if him explaining would make me believe that there's nothing going on between you two?
Suddenly, I felt my anger rush in through me. My body, finally taking action and my brain fully examined the situation. Nang walang pasabi, sinampal ko na siya kaagad.
"Amethyst plea—"
And again.
"I don't need a damn explanation to understand whatever it is you're doing to me Taehyung, God, I'm not that stupid!"
He was about to speak when my hands found his cheek again. It wasn't satisfying. He needs a lot more than that for me to be satisfied. A hundred slaps won't even make the half of it. Just thinking how he smirked at this girl before kissing her, where his hands traveled— it disgusts me.
but then again, sino ba ako sakanya? If he lied about this girl being nothing, ano pa ang mga sinabi niya sa akin dati.
Lies.
They were all lies.
I didn't give him the chance to talk and walked out of the club. And to think na I came here to enjoy only to get the complete opposite? Ano bang kasalanan ang ginawa ko sa past life ko para ma-experience ang ganito?
Hindi ko napansin kung saan na ako dinala ng paa ko. I wasn't in the area anymore. Hindi ko na nga alam kung saan to eh, ang dilim na ng paligid at ang streetlights nalang ang source of light ko dito. I tried going back pero kahit na deretsuhin ko, hindi ko na makita ang club. Nag-simula nang sumakit ang legs ko sa heels kaya naman nag-hanap na muna ako ng mauupuan.
Umupo ako sa isang bench at bumuntong hininga. Magre-relax na sana ako nang bigla may palakang tumalon sa heels ko, kaya kaagad akong napatakbo, kasabay ng pag-bali ng takong ko at pag-halik ng tuhod ko sa semento. Hindi ko na napigilang sumigaw sa inis. "Arrgh punyetang buhay to! Wala na bang mas mailalala to ha?!"
Para bang pinaglalaruan lang ako at sumaktong may kulog na namuo sa langit. Bigla nalang natawa ang bibig ko sa kamalasan ko ngayong araw. Simula kaninang umaga, si Taehyung na bumungad sa akin. Hanggang ngayon, si Taehyung pa din.
Hindi ko mapigilang maisip kung paano niya hinalikan yung babae. Kung paano niya haplusin yung hita niya. At kung ano pa ang mga ginawa nila nang hindi ko alam. Kahit na gusto 'kong kalimutan yung nangyari, paulit ulit pa rin siyang naglalaro sa utak ko.
