Mutuals

[71]

We walk back into the room and I put the plate of mini cakes onto the table as Maira passes the cups of tea around.
"So what are you up to nowadays Zara you never have time for us" my dad turns to me
I clear my throat, "nothing really I've done a few collaborations here and there we're still trying to come up with a big idea"
"Why don't you do a fashion show?" My mum asks
"A show of who's clothes" I laugh, "my clothing line definitely isn't runway material"

"Zara has something to tell everyone" Maira blurts out and I turn to her with wide eyes
"What do you mean" I ask her with a patronising smile
"Just tell them Zara, the sooner the better" she replies completely ignoring me which actually pisses me off
"What's up?" Kaisar asks with a serious tone and now I kind of understand what Maira was talking about when she said he'd be the hardest to convince
"Tell us" my dad prompts and I look at my mum uneasily

"Erm... I wanted to speak about erm..." I clear my throat, "...meandHarriswanttogetmarried"
"Huh?" My mum asks
"She wants to marry Harris" Maira blurts out and I smack her on her leg and she looks at me with a sorry look on her face and shrugs
"You want to WHAT?" Kaisar asks and I nearly jump out of my skin
"Kaisar relax it's not that big of a deal" I laugh slightly hoping he'll calm down
"You wanna marry the twat that didn't turn up the first time?" He shouts, "are you fucked?"

Guess not

"Watch your mouth Kaisar" my dad warns
"Didn't you hear what she said?" He points at me whilst looking at dad

"Zara beta what is this about?" My dad asks calmly and I glance at Kaisar who looks like he wants to break my legs
"I know you think I'm being stupid but me and Harris have been speaking again for the past few months and I really like him still dad" I explain
"Does he even fucking like you" Kaisar scoffs and I try not to usually take what he says to heart but that fucking hurt
Maira grabs my hand and squeezes it and I sniffle, holding back my tears.
"How did you come to the conclusion of marriage again then, after everything that happened?" My dad asks
"He brought it up, he told me he wanted to come that day but he didn't think he could take care of me the way that I deserve" I can feel my voice shuddering and I feel about as big as a pea right now

Kaisar's glare isn't making me feel any more better
"We trust your instinct but are you sure, we saw what you were like after he didn't come and we don't want to see you like that again" my dad asks and I nod my head
"Mum, Dad trust me it's definitely different this time" I fiddle with my fingers
Before they can say anything Kaisar gets up and storms up the stairs slamming the door behind him

We all look at each other and I slump into the sofa, tears pour out freely
"Leave him for a bit" Maira says and I shake my head cleaning my tears
"I need to speak to him" I walk out the room before anyone can stop me
I stop outside his room and sigh, "can I come in Kaisar?"
"Fuck off Zara"
In my 21 years of living, Kaisar has never ever sworn at me and it seems like today he's doing everything he swore he'd never do to me. When it comes to Kasiar I'm really sensitive because we've always been close and he's never actually been angry at me it's always a joke, which is why is I'm practically sobbing outside his room

His door clicks open and my tears stop moving for a second. I push it open to see him sat on his bed so I sit down next to him putting my feet up.
"Are you mad at me?" I ask quietly
"Mmm" he hums
I can't help my tears they just keep falling out and I feel like such an emotional wreck
"Why are you so mad?" I ask
"Zara are you pissing me off on purpose?" He sighs rubbing his eyes
"No Kaisar I don't understand, mum and dad are fine with it" I explain, "so why is it such a big deal for you"
"Are you fu-" he shouts but stops when he seems me flinch a bit

He takes a deep breath, "look I'm protective of you okay? Just like I am with mum and Maira, you're my little sister of course I'm gonna be pissed off at something like this. The day he didn't come and I saw how much you cried and you weren't yourself for so long after that and now suddenly he jumps back in and everything's dandy again?"
"Kasiar do you think I'm a stupid little girl you know I wouldn't go back to him if there was even a tiniest little chance that he'd do the same thing again or hurt me in any other way" I explain
"You don't know what goes through a boy's mind Zara" he sighs frustratedly
"What if when you wanted to get married, Maira's brothers said that she couldn't marry you because some boys have twisted minds and you could be one of them?"

He doesn't say anything

"Look all I'm trying to say is, I'm not fucking brain dead, I gave it a whole year, I tried to get over him I was speaking to another guy at one point too and he actually turned out to be the one with a twisted mind and Harris is nothing like that. Not once has he tried something with me, his family and friends are so nice to me and he loves me like I'm the only girl in the world for him and I love him just the same amount"
He remains quiet for a couple moments and I know he's thinking

"That's what it's like with me and Maira" he mumbles but I make it out
"I know you don't like him Kaisar but I love him, if it's not him it's nobody"
He looks up at me for the first time, "I just don't wanna see you hurt like that again because all my life I've been able to make you feel better but that time I couldn't"
I put my hands on his shoulder, "I promise it's nothing like that this time, I promise"

"Okay then" he nods his head, "as long as it makes you happy again"

Well that wasn't hard at all *note my sarcasm*