Mutuals

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Oh my god I love him so much

I don't know what it's called, but you know when you're looking straight into someone's eyes and all you see is happiness?
Actually let's take it back to the beginning of the day

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8.02am
My alarm is literally piercing through my soul at this point, I wake up with a jolt. I wasn't at my apartment, I was at my parent's house because today was my nikkah day. A day I wasn't really sure I'd ever see but I guess miracles really do exist, even for me.
"Zara darling are you awake" my mum knocks softly on the other side of the door
"Yeah mum" I stretch
She walks in through the door and pulls opens the curtains, letting the sunlight in.
"It's a nice sunny day" my mum comments smiling at me
"Is dad awake?" I ask and she nods her head
"Come down for breakfast before you get ready" she instructs and I nod my head

Half an hour later I saunter down the stairs and into the kitchen to see my mum and dad at the dining table.
"Morning" I smile and they both reply
I perch onto one of the chairs and put my legs up
"How you feeling?" My dad asks
"I'm okay" I look at him, "nervous though"
He chuckles and I can see the sadness in his eyes but I don't have the emotional capacity to deal with his emotions. Mine are through the roof right now, I am literally about to be Zara Jung in a few hours. How cool are them initials though? Z.J.

My mum hands me a cup of tea and I sip at it slowly in silence. I feel like my parents are just trying to take in the last few hours with me, and so am I. It's not like I've been living with them all this time because I've had my own apartment but it still feels like I'm leaving them. I wipe away a tear, not realising I was crying.
"I'm going to go get ready now" I say putting my mug in the sink and walking over to my room.

I took my camera off charge and switched it on and set it up. It had been forever since I'd made a video and I really miss making them, after all they are the reason I am where I am today.
I put my nikkah dress on which still amazes me to this day, I have no idea how we managed to find something that was so me.

"Hi guys welcome back to my channel after a long long break" I clap my hands smiling at the camera
"It's actually my nikkah day today and I've never been more nervous in my whole life. For those that don't know I'm getting married today to Harris"

"I'm not in my usual filming spot either, I'm actually at my parents house. It's currently 8.47 and I've just had my breakfast and now I'm going to do my makeup and I thought it'd be cute to do a little 'get ready with me' video"

"You're probably thinking I'm silly for doing my makeup myself on my nikkah but I am an influencer at the end of the day so I guess this my job right?" I laugh slightly to myself, I'm actually going loopy by the time Harris sees me I'll be finished. He might not even want me after that.

I leisurely do my makeup and just as I'm finishing up, Maira walks in.
"Ohhhh she's a pretty bride" she leans down to hug me
I laugh, "hello to you too"
"You look stunning Mashallah" she smiles at me and I can just see tears form at her eyes and I shake my head
"Nope guys look, she's gonna make me cry and I've only just done my makeup" I whine to the camera
"Okay sorry sorry sorry, I can't help it you look so pretty" she sniffles and I roll my eyes to conceal any emotions

I add the finishing touches and pause the filming
"How do the decorations look?"
"It actually looks really nice, exactly like you wanted it" she replies
"Can I see it?" I ask and she shrugs
"Ask your mum" she laughs
"You know she'll say no" I pout and she shrugs
"I guess you gotta wait then, the photographers are going to be here soon" she informs before running down the stairs leaving me alone in my room again

I do my hair into a cute updo with curly ends and drape my dupatta over my head.
"Guys everyone's downstairs and they won't let me join in" I pout towards the camera, "It's coming on to 11 o'clock and I'm waiting for my photographer to come but I'm not allowed downstairs until Harris and his family comes"

I look outside the window which unfortunately for me doesn't point to the back garden, instead it points to the front one which is no good for me today. There's a knock at the door and Maira walks in with the photographer who spends the next hour taking pictures of me in all my glory.

"Are we done now" I ask and she smiles
"Yes for now" she replies
"Oh thank God" I breathe a sigh of relief
"Are you excited to get married?" She asks as she flicks through all the pictures we just took
"I'm more nervous than anything" I laugh nervously, "I'm the most comfortable with him but he still makes me nervous"
"That's good though, it makes it real" she replies and I nod my head
"You look stunning by the way" she comments before I hear the door open

The hallway is filled with a series of salaams and I feel my heart beat as loud as a drum when his voice is singled out from everyone's.

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Hey guysss :)
I know I'm taking the piss with chapters but I've got a lot going on at the moment I'll try though x