Mutuals

[63]

I roll over to my left to grab my phone and press snooze for the fourth time this morning but instead it's my phone ringing not my alarm

Alice's name glares back at me and whine before answering it
"Hi"
"Did you just wake up?" She asks
"Yes, why"
"You're meant to be at work we're waiting for you" she says and my eyes widen
"Shit shit shit" I panic jump out of my bed, "give me like half an hour"

I end the call and grab a random pair of jeans and a hoodie and leg it into the bathroom. No time to shower today, I know, disgusting. I brush my teeth and wash my face, get changed and wrap my hijab around my head really quickly before grabbing my trainers and handbag and running out the door.

I got to work in ten minutes and literally burst through the door
"Guys I'm so sorry I'm late" I throw myself on the chair to catch my breath
"What happened?" Jason asks
"I don't know I just had a... rough night"
Alice gives me a look but I dismiss her

"What needs to be done today?"
"I got an email from the lash business and they want you to approve of some packaging" he turns his laptop over to me, "they sent a few design ideas"
I scroll through them and decide on a couple and then we do a vote

"I'll email them back" Jason says going back into his little bubble typing away on his laptop
"Can I go pick some breakfast up I didn't eat anything" I say doubling over holding my stomach for drama
"Yeah go" Farhan says
"Anyone wanna come with?" I ask grabbing my handbag
"I'll come actually" Farhan gets up and grabs his coat

As we get into my car Farhan speaks up, "it's actual torture being their third wheel"
"You're like the third couple member, you're around them all the time" I laugh
"It's cause you're always late you idiot" he says and I snicker
"So what happened with you last night" he asks
I sigh, "...nothing I was just having one of them nights"
"Talk to me"
"How's things with your wife?" I change the subject
"Very good actually, now tell me, it's not nothing cause otherwise you wouldn't be avoiding it"

I rub my hand on my leg and rest it on my gearstick,
"I was supposed to go on a date with Harris last night because he wanted to talk about everything and start fresh because he thinks we still have something -"
"Do you think you still have something?" He interrupts me
"Well thats the thing because I was thinking maybe we can fix things and start again because I do still have feelings for him but he stood me up" I sigh
"He begged to take you on a date and then stood you up?" Farhan confirms and I nod my head, "what was his excuse"

"He told me he was busy" my laugh is laced with sarcasm
"Jheez thats shit"
"Mmm well it didn't end there because you know Adil?" He nods his head, "... yeah well I decided to go chill with him and we were just chilling in my car and i was sat it his lap but it was all pure nothing dirty but then he got A BONER and then BEGGED for a kiss so I had to literally kick him out"

Farhan's eyes were kinda wide at this point,
"It actually stuns me how you still pick the wrong guys when you're picky as fuck"
"I knowwwwww" I reply with exaggeration, "I literally cried when I got home... for like... 5 hours"
"Look I know it's shit but wait it out, the right person will come and you're only young yet you have ages" he explains
"I know but sometimes I feel like it's never gonna come and I should just settle" I sigh
"No never settle, someone out there will put up with your shit don't worry" he adds cheekily and I give him a sarcastic eye roll

"Do you think I should try it again with Harris?" I ask after getting my croissant and coffee from a drive-thru
He shrugs his shoulders, "only you can honestly decide whether that's be good for you or not"
"But I love him, I still do" I sit in a slump
"Go for it then, being apart from him is clearly not doing you any good and as long as he's actually willing to try you should do it"

"But what about Adil?" I ask completely forgetting about him until now
"Do you love him?" He asks
"Before he played up yesterday I thought he'd be able to fill the void Harris left but I don't think he makes me feel the same as Harris" I rub my eyes, "they're two very different people, it's hard"
"Do you see yourself marrying Adil?"
I shake my head almost instantly, "no"
"Why?"
"I don't know, don't get me wrong he's an amazing person but he doesn't seem marriage ready but I'd say I am" I explain
"There you go then, you and Harris should try it again"

I look out the window processing the conversation I've just had.
"You can be kinda helpful sometimes" i say looking at Farhan
"That was your cheeky way of saying thank you I get it" he laughs, "so you're welcome"
I smile wiping my hands clean and then driving us back to work