In The Stars - (PewDieCry)

-Chapter 26-

A/N: And this is an example of a chapter where Cry uses (this). Because he might be going batshit crazy. Good times. Also, this hit 5,000 :D ❤ guess what? I love chu. That's why this is so early. I got to writing it 'cause cliffhangers always motivate me. Thank you for reading this and putting up with me. I appreciate every one of you. Have a good morning, noon, and night. Deuces!

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[cry's p.o.v.]

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I think I just killed Felix.

Fuck, I didn't mean to kill him- I didn't know, I didn't know, I didn't know... I didn't know what I was doing... I thought he was hurt, and Nate, I didn't know...

(walking out into the dark cutting out a different path)

My head hurt, fucking hell, my head hurts so bad... I slump next to a tree and my back is scratched and my shirt ripped by the bark. I don't even feel the blood running down my back.

(led by your beating heart)

He won't stop talking. Talking in my head. Why won't he stop talking? He's dead, so why can I still hear him singing?

"Cry, where are you?" Ken calls. He sounds relaxed. Like he's won. Why the fuck did I ever go along with him? What did he do to me, to make me this broken... this shattered inside?

(the night was all you had)

"Fucking shut up!" I scream, and I don't know if I'm talking to the thoughts raging inside of my head or Ken, who is getting closer and closer. I stand up and slip around the tree so he can't see where I am.

(look, the gun is loaded)

(and it's in your hands Cry don't you see it's in your hands)

"I know you're out here, Cry." His steps are only a few feet away. I can hear someone else walking behind him. "Come out, and we can leave this place. Go home. Doesn't that sound nice?"

I'm so tired of all this running. I don't even know why I ran in the first place. I don't know where I am.

It's like some things I know, but a second later they slip away. My name is Cry, I think. Felix, I was in love with him- but then I ran into the night with him, a monster, but monsters run with other monsters, right? Monsters run with monsters because they understand each other.

"What did you do to me?" I ask, standing up and stepping away from the tree's protection. Out in the open, in the dead of the night.

(I hear you calling in the dead of night)

His head whips over and the smile on his face is psychotic. Why did I never notice that? I point a gun at him when he takes a step closer. "Who are you? Who am I?" My mind is so muddled that I can barely think straight.

"I just told you that they were in danger," he laughs, "and when they weren't, you broke. You thought you were so strong, but you're not as strong as me. Because the trick is not caring... and you'll always care..." I aim the gun at his heart and it takes me a second to notice that I pulled the trigger. He cries out and falls to one knee, clutching his heart. From here I can see the blood that seeps through his fingers.

(can't feel your heart anymore can you)

(well neither can i)

Do you hear that, Felix? I can't feel my heart.

I smile a horrible and wicked smile, and then out of nowhere I begin to laugh. On the inside I'm shocked and scared and I want to curl up and cry, but I laugh. Usually I have more control over my thoughts, but not tonight... because who cares... let them be free. I reload the gun and walk over to Ken who is lying on the ground, moaning in pain. I press the gun against his head.

"Stop!" Spoon across the clearing aims the gun at me. "You can't kill him. Please, you can't kill him." The joking is gone from his tone. He thinks he can be happy, running with monsters.

"Why not?" My voice says without permission. "The gun is loaded, and it's in my hands. My heart has gone missing. I can't even feel it. Did you know that I don't need a heart to kill you?" I grin and Spoon takes a wary step closer.

"Please. He's all I have. He wasn't always like this, I knew him. Please Cry, if you're still in there, let it be." He puts down the gun and holds up his arms. I marvel for a minute on how Spoon's attitude has changed. I hear him talking. He caused this whole mess. I could kill him but

(this is your heart, can you feel it)

Felix.

Felix, he wouldn't want me to be this... but...

He isn't here anymore, is he?

"I'll be back," I say and take a step away, making sure to kick Ken square in the stomach. He makes a funny oof sound. "I hate you. I hate all of you. You took my heart, you know. Fucking ripped it out of my chest." Spoon rushes forward when I take few steps back. Hoodie steps out of the forest and stands guard at Spoon's side.

"Get out of here, Cry," he says in his quiet voice.

"Fuck off, Mark," I snarl. "I can always rip off the other side of your face." Mark pulls down his hood. Crude scars trail down one side of his face, looking like an animal scratched him. That animal was me. Mark picks up Ken and they don't even look at me when they turn to walk away. I take a step forward, then back, not sure what to do.

(i don't have a heart to lead me don't leave me here)

(i just died in your arms tonight)

"Do you hear me? He didn't deserve this! He didn't fucking deserve to die! Felix doesn't belong in the stars, he belongs with me..." Spoon and Mark share a look, and Mark continues walking while Spoon walks back to me. I'm on my knees. He presses a gun to my head and I set mine down.

I think I'm finally done.

Is it bad that the thought of being done only bring relief?

Amy, I'm coming if you'll let me.

I've done bad things.

I know I have.

Some of them I don't even regret.

But I have the gun. It's loaded. I had the match, and I used it to burn everyone around me... including Felix. You, too.

But if you'll have me, I'd like to come and live with you in that new house of yours up in the stars. If that's okay?

"He's alive." Spoon says after a moment. "Damn me to hell for telling you this, but he's alive. You can't give up just yet. I hate you, Cry. Don't get me wrong. But I can't let you give up." I look up into the barrel of the gun. He lowers it a little, and my mind sets into place. I'm done, yet I might just be okay.

"I don't deserve him, do I?" I ask and Spoon shakes his head solemnly.

"Felix and I aren't all that different, you know." He says, sticking out a hand to help me up. Against all reasoning, I take it. Spoon pulls me up and immediately takes a step away like I might stab him.

"How are you anything like Felix?" I manage to spit out. Spoon sticks his hands into his hoodie pocket and lets out a huge sigh.

"We both love monsters. We try not to take in their ways, but it happens anyways. The people that we love just bring us down." His voice is bitter and full of hate. Spoon picks my gun up and shoves it into my hands. "Get out of here before he finds you. That's my advice. Leave and don't come back. If you care about him then go."

"I..." But I already went once and look how it turned out. But maybe... maybe if I couldn't be found this time...

"Go, Cry." He shoves me and I nearly fall down. The face that was almost compassionate a minute ago is now cold. "Go and don't you ever fucking come back." I turn, looking one last time at the building where he is... and then I run.

(i should've walked away)