In The Stars - (PewDieCry)

-Chapter 17-

 [cry’s p.o.v.]

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“Fuck. Why didn’t you just stay away when I told you to stay away?” I hold my arm, my teeth gritted. As soon as I walk out of the building, I immediately start yelling at him. Minx flinches away… but I’ll deal with her later. “Dammit, Felix. Why didn’t you listen to me for once? Now Ken knows all about you! He knows that you can’t even shoot a damn gun.”

“Because I couldn’t leave you alone! You would’ve died.” He says indignantly. He obviously believes he hasn’t done anything wrong. We decided to leave his car where I parked it a few blocks away and take Genia’s car home. Mostly because she will kill us if we don’t. I get into shotgun, Minx in the back, and Pewds is driving.

“You could’ve just left.” I hiss. “Why do you even care about me? I’m not worth it. All I do is get people killed.” Felix slams on the breaks and looks me straight in the eye. He looks more dangerous than I’ve ever seen him. People honk but he ignores them.

“You want reasons? Fine.” I open my mouth to say something and he cuts me off. “One, I’m in love with you. I’ve been since the day we met. Don’t you even understand what that means? Love, damn you, Cry. I’m in love with you."

“No-“ He glares at me again, and I stop talking. 

 “Two, you’re the only one who understands about the stars. You’re the only one I can actually talk to without wanting to scream that god, you don’t understand or why can’t you just hear the pain in my voice? You know, Cry. You understand my pain, and I understand yours.”

I scream, covering my ears, trying to block him out. Minx is cowering in the back, trying to stay away from us. “I don’t understand anything! Neither do you! All I understand is I got Amy killed and Nate is hurt and…” I put my head in my hands, ignoring the stab of pain in my arm. My head hurts like a bitch from when I fell, and I’m pretty sure that I’m not thinking well. My vision is getting fuzzier and fuzzier as the seconds tick by.

“And what?” Felix asks gently. He looks calmer than he was before.

“And… you’re next. Pewds, you are going to die, and it’s going to be my fault. ” I want to hop out of this car right now and run away from him. Tears flow down my face. “Why are you even still with me? I’m just going to hurt you. Everyone near me just ends up getting hurt...”

“I don’t care if you say you’re worthless. I don’t think you are worthless at all. Honest.”

“But-“

“I couldn’t leave you now, even if I tried.”

>>>> 

“Oh. My. Gosh!” Genia throws her arms around me and snuggles her face into my hair. “Look! It’s my favorite grandchild!” I roll my eyes at her. She always says that about both Nate and I.

“Genia…” I start, but she cuts me off. I need to tell her about Amy, but she won’t listen.
“Nate is doing okay. He’s sleeping at the moment. I got the bullet out.” She holds up her wooden spoon, which has blood on it. I hope she doesn’t cook with that thing. “I did it all with my trusty spoon!”

“Okay then,” Felix says, and she smacks him. He yelps and covers his head. Minx laughs, for the first time in a long time. For a second I forgot she was even here.

“Who are you, sweetheart?” Genia says nicely, smiling at Minx, still smacking Pewdie. He’s trying to get away, but she just follows him. Minx holds her stomach from laughing so hard and bends over, trying to catch her breath. “You look nice. I like you. Unlike this young man right here.” Felix smiles at Genia and they both laugh. I hate all of this laughing. I’m not going to act like Amy didn’t just die, and I didn’t just stab Ken’s eye.

“She’s a fucking bitch, that’s what,” I snarl and Minx flinches. She stops laughing immeditaly. I walk away, keeping my fists locked at my sides. I might kill her if I don’t.

I kneel next to my brother who is on the couch. When I press a hand to his forehead, it’s warm, like he has a fever. He’s not doing well so far, I can tell. But I know Nate will make it through.

He has to.

If he doesn’t, I don’t know what I’ll do.

“Nate, why does it hurt so much?” I lean my back against the couch and watch Genia, Felix, and Minx through the doorway. “It hasn’t hurt this bad in so long. So why does it suddenly hurt now?”

“C-Cry?” A hand brushes my hair. One of Nate’s eyes are open. “G-Genia… she knows… I told… her…” He slumps back as if talking takes a lot of effort. “She… isn’t angry.”

“But it was my fault…” I say as he drifts back to sleep. “All of this… is my fault…” All of them laugh from the other room, but I frown. Digging a hand into my pocket, I pull out the set of keys and the adoption papers that Amy gave me. I look at them for a second before I stand up and chuck the key across the room. It smacks the wall and clatters to the floor.  Nobody is around to see me, they all moved into the kitchen.

There’s no one left.

Just me.

I hiss in pain when the key hits the wall, like I’m the one getting thrown around. The adoption papers are so heavy in my hands. I drop them to the ground and they float slowly, landing on the bloody carpet. Blood… blood? Blood runs from my head and drips onto the ground. My knees suddenly feel weak. They collapse under me. I hit the ground hard, and immediately I hear someone call my name, asking if I’m okay.

“Cry? Cry!”

Darkness.