In The Stars - (PewDieCry)

-Chapter 22-

[cry’s p.o.v.]

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“Get your fucking hands off of me,” I snarl when Felix reaches for me when I step out of the hospital room. My mask conceals my feelings, but I know he can understand them immediately.  That’s what happens when you let someone in, I guess. “You walked up to me and you acted like everything was okay. You lied to me.”

“I didn’t lie,” he says calmly. “I just didn’t you the whole truth.”

“You-“

“You never asked me if anything was wrong. Fuck you, Cry. I missed you. I wanted to spend a few minutes with you that weren’t crazy!” His fists clench at his sides, and I have never seen him look angrier. “What are you going to do next, blame me for your brother dying? It… it wasn’t my fault! I wasn’t the one who fucking hit him! Was I? No!” His lip trembles a little, but he still glares just as fiercely through tears. I didn’t know that he blamed himself for Nate’s injury. It sounds like he’s trying to convince himself that he’s innocent.

“Felix-“

“Don’t.” He wipes his eyes with his sleeve. “I love you, but I’m so tired. Sometimes being with you is like swimming through molasses.”

“Then why?” I ask. Biting my lip I take a step back. I never wanted to hurt Felix. But, since he’s been with me… he’s seen someone die, a man stabbed, and someone hit by a car. It’s like I’m a bad luck charm. Wherever I go the weight of living follows.

“We’ve already had this conversation before.” He stares at me dead in the eye. “It hurts, but I need you. I guess if you fall, I’ll fall with you.” His eyes are less bright when he wraps one arm around me. Like the stars in his eyes are flickering out one by one… all because of me.

“Okay,” I say, but inside I’m screaming no.Run away as fast as you can. Go to the stars, Felix. You don’t want a seat next to me in the darkness. I don’t want to destroy Felix, too. He’s next. I remember all of the dreams I had in my “coma” and they were terrifying… death after death after death of all the people I love and for a while I thought those dreams were my reality.

[flashback]

I’m in the library. What am I doing here? I search my pockets for car keys but find none. I was walking at this late at night? Hell, I should know out of everyone how unsafe the streets are at night. I was just at home with Felix and my fam-

“You have no family.” A woman steps out of the shadows. “You’re alone.” A cold voice sounds from the very corner of the room. I can’t see it at this angle. I turn and look toward where the sound came from. Two more dragging steps and she’s suddenly illuminated in the light of the street lamps shining through the broken windows.

Amy.

“What are you…? You’re dead!” I sputter, and she smiles. Half of her face is ripped off, one of the eyes stabbed out. The same one that I stabbed Ken in. She’s shot three times. One in the leg, one in the chest, and one in the shoulder.