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𝟎𝟓𝟐|𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐅𝐈𝐅𝐓𝐘 - 𝐓𝐖𝐎

5 september 2019
REALITY

previously: he kissed me.
                       and for some reason i didn't pull away...

after a second i realized what we were doing and i pushed away.

"wa- what was that" i say in a barley audible whisper.

"i'm sorr- god i' I'm not. i know we haven't known each other for long, but i remember one of the first times we talked it was you accusing nessa of shit that i didn't believe. now to look at it you were right all along. you told me when something was wrong in the relationship and hell- yours messed up too. you never lied which was one thing girls in my past relationships did a whole lot. you don't need to say anything, but i just couldn't stand it in there when they kept trying make you look bad. that's my sister too! i wouldn't even thought i would have to be like that to a family member, but look where we are now. it a little early but i-i think you know that i have feelings for you" he says.

one those words left him mouth my mind went places. never in a million years would i have thought i would be hearing those words from him. i was a bit shocked at first. i didn't know what to think. we had both recently gotten out of relationships and needed a bit of time to ourselves. i didn't know what to do and the first thing that came to mind is what i did. i wouldn't say this is a good thing at all.

"i'm sorry, i can't do this right now" i say and get up heading to who knows where. i just wanted to leave.

i freaked out a little. i never saw josh like that or did i? i didn't know what my feelings were telling me.

"wait y/n" he says chasing after me.

i could tell he wanted to talk, but i didn't. there was a lot of things going on and i don't think i was ready for that yet. i quickly make it my car and leave. not a smart thing because i was supposed to be designated driver and was supposed to be diving emma and dixie. i was only hoping that emma would be in a good enough state to get herself and dixie to safe place. i quickly texted her saying that i left.

TEXT MESSAGES
emma

y/n
i had to leave the party

emma
you left?!

emma
without us!

y/n
im sorry

y/n
are you gonna be okay getting to dixie's?

emma
we'll be fine but why'd you leave

emma
did something happen?

y/n
yeah a shit ton happened

y/n
i'll explain later ok

emma
ok?

emma
let me know if you need anything...

REALITY

i didn't know where to go so i just went to the cliff. as i said i don't come here often, but when i do i come to clear my mind. it was about 8:30, so it was very dark outside.

i sat there for a while. maybe it was wrong to run away like that. should i have talked to him? should i go back? what if he hates me now? god please not that. do i like him?

he was so nice about it. we haven't known each other for that long but i could tell he meant it. i probably hurt him feelings. darn y/n. way to go!

i didn't expect that from him. he didn't seem like a guy to like someone like me.

i should probably apologize to him. it was late right now though. almost 10. you know i'll call him tomorrow. maybe i'll have a better thought of what to say then.

i should probably get home too. no one knew where i was and i didn't want to worry anyone. i decided to go home and just sleep. i changed and just went to bed. i had no energy to do a nothing else.

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author speaks

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