𝐁𝐔𝐋𝐋𝐘'𝐒 𝐁𝐑𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 | ᴶᴼˢᴴ ᴿᴵᶜᴴᴬᴿᴰˢ

𝟎𝟔𝟕|𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐒𝐈𝐗𝐓𝐘 - 𝐒𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍

20 september 2019
REALITY

when people say they get butterflies when they kiss i always thought it was just nonsense. i've kissed many other people in my life and never got them, so i had no other option than to think it was bogus.

but i was wrong.

so so wrong.

as soon as our lips touched my stomach erupted. i felt waves of heat go through my body as our lips met.

the kiss was soft, but i could feel the passion in it.

we pull apart and my eyes open almost immediately. i see josh open his eyes too. we stare into each others' eyes for a second before he pulls us together again.

our lips meet into another kiss. this one was much more passionate. it was like a makeout, but it didn't feel like one at all. our lips moved in sync as we kissed. he runs his fingers through my hair as i reached up to wrap my arms around his neck and my hands dove into his hair. we kiss for a few minutes which felt like an eternity.

we finally pull away and he rests his forehead on mine. my eyes open to be met with the stare of josh himself. we stare at each other, again, before he speaks up.

"i've wanted to do that for so long," he says breathlessly.

"why didn't you," i say.

"i- i thought you'd be mad," he says.

"you're crazy, why would i be mad?" i say.

"y-you said that you wanted to go slow and i felt that if i made a move then you would be mad and i-i didn't want you to feel like i was pressuring you into doing something you didn't want to. i-i don't know what happened today, b-but you seemed fine with it so i couldn't stop myself" he rambles looking into his lap.

"hey," i say cupping his face with both of my hands.

"you've got yourself so worked up for what" i say.

"i- i--" he starts.

"you need to calm yourself down, i'm not mad -- never will be" i say.

"i just wanted to make sure" he says.

"you know that what i like about you" i say.

"huh" he says.

"you always ask before doing anything and make sure i'm okay with it. i mean it's the bare minimum, but not many guys have that feature," i say.

"well, all those guys are hella stupid if they think they can do whatever they want. girls aren't objects, so we can't treat them like one. it would be so wrong to" he says which makes me smile.

•••

"uh do you have to go," he says which catches me off guard.

"oh right" i say before getting out.

he walks me up to my door and was about to leave, but i stopped him before he could.

"hey, josh," i say.

"yeah?" he says.

"thank you for tonight... i really enjoyed it" i say.

"oh.. no problem," he says.

i reach up on my toes, because of how tall he is compared to me, and peck him on the lips once more before i say, "goodnight."

i catch him off guard before he says, "goodnight."

i open my front door and then shut it close. i lean against the inside of the door as i slide down it exausted, but smiling like an idiot.

i never knew i would like someone this much, and it was only the beginning.

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author speaks

nah cause i was just starting to like jaden but after all this drama shit ion even know anymore
also my josh faze is coming back 🧍🏽‍♀️
he's lowkey attractive
i feel so bad for him

thank you for reading 🤍