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𝟎𝟔𝟐|𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐒𝐈𝐗𝐓𝐘 - 𝐓𝐖𝐎

19 september 2019
REALITY

JOSH POV:

am i stupid?

be honest with me.

one second i'm thinking y/n just want to be friends the next, she's some what confessing her feelings.

were they feelings though?

woah woah woah, let me not get ahead of myself.

she dosen't said she liked me. all she said was that she didn't mind the things that slip out of my mouth. you know i hate myself for that. if only i could just shut up. she also said she was over vinnie and that she was ready to move on. i guess i didn't feel half as bad now.

i don't know what's wrong with me. i've never been like this for a girl. well i thought i was for nessa, but we can all see that didn't work out.

when i first met nessa i always thought she was so sweet and i really, really thought she was different. I didn't have many girlfriends before nessa besides all the crappy ones in middle school. i had one serious one before her, but she ended up cheating on me.

it sucked, but i got over it.

then nessa came around and she practically blinded me. when we first met i dated her for her personality. she was sweet and then i saw how she treated my siblings and i fell. i feel hard.

i care for my siblings a lot and i would do anything for them. olivia didn't have may friends and when her and ness clicked it was like it was meant to be.

or so i thought...

now i can see i was just tricked. i dated her for her personality but the thing is, she didn't show me her real one. i saw her real side and since then i've never regretted talking to someone more in my whole like.

she even brainwashed my own sister for fucks sake, but i guess thats on her.

then i met y/n.

at first i thought the complete opposite of what she really is.

one of the first times we spoke was when she was trying to tell me about nessa but i just brushed it off. turns out she was right and she didn't lie to me.

thats what i like about her.

she's never lied to me.

all girls I've had past relationships with alway lie or cheat or do something that triggers my trust issues even more. I haven't known y/n for long, but i can tell she's not like that.

she dosen't give a fuck about what other people say or do. she stays in her own business as long as it dosen't involve her.

she also dosen't suck up to things too much. she tough, and i like it. don't get me wrong attention is great, but when they get too clingy it gets annoying. i like a relationship where you can bully each other and have fun without having to acknowledge that you're dating every second.