JB5: Set Me Free, Mr. Businessman [BXB] [√]

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Francis Neil Juariz

"Gago, ba't mo naman siya iniwan ng ganoon? Are you really out of your mind? Akala ko ba babawi ka?" Ang pagputak ng gagong si Gavin sa harapan ko bago tinungga ang bote ng beer na hawak niya.

I placed the bottle of beer on top of the wooden table and glared at him. Gusto kong pumalag but I know I'm in no position to do so. I was wrong. I acted like some stupid idiot in front of him. It wasn't my intention to threaten him like that. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ako nagkagan'on.

Hindi naman ako nakainom kanina. Maayos pa namang gumagana ang utak ko noong nagkausap kami bago nangyari ang away na 'yon. Can I even call that a fight?

"So why did you threaten him? Was it because he's seeing somebody else?" I looked daggers at him. Why can't he just shut his fucking mouth up and shoved it on his lover's ass?

The corner of his lips lifted upwards. He looked at me with a mocking stare as he sip on his drink. Kaibigan ko ba talaga 'tong gagong 'to?

Inilihis ko ang paningin mula sa kanya at tumingin sa kawalan. Bakit nga ba ako nagkagan'on? I'd tease him and make fun of him most of the times because I like seeing his annoyed face pero ni minsan hindi sumagi sa isipan ko na takutin siya ng gan'on. It wasn't my intention to do that. Nadala lang ako.

It drove me boiling mad when he told me he doesn't give a fuck about me. I invested all my attention and time to him after I took him as my husband tapos iyon lang ang makukuha ko sa kanya. Ano bang kulang sa akin?

Ano bang nakita niya sa lalaking 'yon at ang dali-daling mahulog ng loob niya?

"Hindi ko alam kung ano pang hinahanap niya," I murmured out of the blue. "Why can't he looked at me for a second and try to figure out who am I? Sobrang bilis ko ba talagang kalimutan?"

Girls would flock at me wherever I go. All the women I've been with never fails to forget my likes and dislikes, my birthday, my day-offs, my schedule. Pero ang baliw na 'yon, kahit alam naman niya ang mga gusto at hindi ko gusto ginagawa pa rin niya ang gusto niya. Alam naman niya ang birtnday ko pero hindi man lang ako binati ng gago kung hindi ko lang siya tinawagan. He knows when I'm free yet he never dares to contact me.

He'd look at me like I was another stranger passing by in his life. He never looked at me again like he used to when we were younger. The admiration was gone. The sparkles became dull. I was left with an empty eyes.

"Hindi rin siguro niya alam kung ano nga ba ang hinahanap niya. He has been through a lot. Habaan mo ang pasensya mo. Gusto mong bumawi 'di ba? When we were kids, kahit palagi mo siyang inaasar at pinagtri-tripan ang haba-haba ng pasensya niya pagdating sa'yo. He'd never get mad at you. He would smile at you brightly instead.

Ikaw naman parang gago kung kiligin, nagagalit o di kaya nang-aasar. Ba't di mo nalang kasi amining may gusto ka sa kanya? You never admit it yourself but your actions kept on contradicting yourself."

I like him?

I looked at him, confused. "Hindi ako bakla."

He rolled his eyes at me. "Stop labeling yourself. Mahihirapan ka talagang tanggapin sa sarili mo na may gusto ka sa kanya kasi sa isip mo straight ka. So what if you are? Set aside your gender and think about Mason. Weigh your decision base on what you feel towards him at hindi sa dahilang sa babae ka lang tinitigasan. Gusto mo ba siya o hindi? Kung hindi then stop showing motives. Stop being jealous. Stop being unprofessional. Teka, tinitigasan ka ba sa kanya?"