Catch Me Before I Fall (A Phanfiction)

Chapter 20

*Dan's POV*

I woke up and looked at the time, it was 7 am, I couldn't fall back asleep so I decided to get up. I looked at my arm and sighed it was still bandaged, I feel awful for having to put my mom through that she didn't deserve that. I got up and freshened up, before heading downstairs I peeked into Phil's room he was still asleep, I missed him so much but maybe he just needs his space. "You're up early" my mom said as I went downstairs. "I woke up and couldn't fall back asleep. Are you going to work?" I asked her and she nodded "Can you take me with you? I'll be able to visit Peter" Peter was feeling better according to her and we are finally allowed to see him. "Sure, let me make you some breakfast first" she smiled "But Dan, what about Phil? He'd want to come too" she said. "Dad can tell him, I just want to give him his space mum" I sighed.

After breakfast mum drove me to the hospital "I have to go see if they need me for anything, why don't you go visit Peter and give him these" she said handing me a vase of flowers she got for him. I headed to Peters room and found him sitting on his bed "Hey" I smiled at him. "Dan! Aw you brought me flowers how flattering" he laughed "They're from my mom don't get too happy" I laughed. "How are you feeling?" I asked him "I'm fine, I feel much better! That Ben is a dick though!" Even when in the hospital Peter can't be serious "That he is" I laughed silently. "So, where's Phil?" He asked and I looked down "He's at home sleeping" peter looked concerned "I thought he'd come with you, you guys are always together" I looked at Peter "After we brought you here, Phil had a breakdown and he said a bunch of things and, I-I think we're broken up" I was trying so hard not to cry, I didn't want Peter to see me cry. "I'm so sorry, but you guys will work things out, there's no way you guys will be like this forever" Peter said "If I could've I would've slapped the shit out of you both when you fought" and I laughed silently, I noticed Peter looking at my arm, shit my bandages where showing I pulled my sleeve down to hide it "Dude! You didn't" he said sternly "I'm sorry" I sighed sadly and he hit me with a pillow "Just wait till I get out of here" he said and I laughed silently. "By the way, what happened to Ben?" Peter asked me "Dad said he wasn't at the house, they're searching for him" I sighed "Well shit we better start wearing bulletproof jackets" he joked.

We talked for about 15 minutes and there was a knock at the door, it was Phil. "Phil!" Peter smiled and Phil gave an awkward smile. "Sorry I didn't tell you I was going to come here, I didn't want to wake you" I said and Phil just nodded not even looking at me, he still didn't want to speak to me "I-Im going to go, I'll see you later Peter" I said goodbye and left. I wish Phil would talk to me, I really missed him I hated not being able to talk to him. I went home and my dad was at sitting at the table "Hey dad. What are you doing?" I asked him "Reading through Phil's fathers case. By the way how's everything with Phil" I sat down "Not good, he doesn't want to speak to me" I said sadly. "Give it time Dan, he's going through a lot"  I nodded "Your mum will be home early, how about we make lunch today? It'll take your mind off of things for a while" my dad patted my back and I gave him a small smile. We made lunch and set the table, by the time we finished mum came home with Phil. "What's all this?" She asked us "Dad and I made lunch" I said quietly, Phil took a seat too I knew he didn't want to but he did, I sat opposite to him we ate in silence, I wanted to say something but I was afraid, I decided to say something "How was your time with Peter?" I asked Phil looked me "I-uh..excuse me.." He said and got up and left the table he looked sad, I blew it again. I put my face in my hand and sighed my mum put her hand on my shoulder "I'll talk to him" she said getting up.

*Phil's POV*

I ran up to the guest room and fell onto the bed and cried, I heard a knock at the door "Phil? Can I come in?" It was Dan's mum, I sat up and nodded while wiping my tears away. She came and sat next to me "Are you alright?" She asked sweetly  "N-no, I feel awful, I hurt Dan so much that he hurt himself, I-I don't know what to say to him" I cried "Phil, Dan really misses you, he was just upset about what happened. I know that he wants to talk to you and fix things" she said softly "I-I don't know what to say to him" I sobbed, she then hugged me "Its okay, you'll fix things it just requires time" I felt contorted, I know if my mum was alive she would have said the same thing. "Do you want to go see your father Phil? Robert is going down to the station in a few minutes he can take you" I wiped my tears and nodded. I washed my face and Dan's dad and I went to the station. It felt weird going without Dan, I always went with him, I guess I just have to deal with it while things are like this.  "Philip" my dad said and I smiled "D-dad I messed up" I said to him. I explained everything to him I told him everything I said to Dan and he just listened. "By the sounds of it, Dan wants to talk to you" my dad said "But I hurt him dad, I'm better off dead" I said sadly, my dads face dropped "Listen to me, don't say or think that. You're better than that Phil, things will be okay I promise" I nodded, although I did not agree with him but I couldn't hurt my dad.

Afterwards I decided to walk around a bit to think of things, I really wanted to die but I don't know why I couldn't do it. I was afraid to try again, I was afraid I'd hurt everyone again I didn't want that. Maybe if I slowly distant myself, that way if something where to happen no one would get hurt so much. I found myself at a bridge, I walked over to the edge and looked down, one jump and all of this can be over, one jump and all the pain would be gone, but why couldn't I do it? What's stopping me? I sat on the edge, what am I so afraid of, I want to die but why can't I do it. Dan, he was all I could think about right now, I hurt him enough, I got up and walked away from the bridge, maybe today isn't the day to end things, I need time I need to make sure I don't hurt anyone I hurt too many people already.