Catch Me Before I Fall (A Phanfiction)

Chapter 11

Dan's POV:

I was excited because I get to see Phil. But also, I feel bad for Phil. My dad drove me to Phil's house. Along the way I thought of what I could say to Phil to make him feel better. I finally reached his house and I waved to my dad. Phil comes running outside to greet me.

"Dan, I have to find a way to get mu father out of jail." Phil said frantically.

"Phil you gotta calm down" I say. Tears were coming down his face.

"Dan I am sierous, there must be something I can do" Phil says. He is still crying.

"Ok Ok, um my dad can help, he dealt with a case like this before" I suggest.

"I don't think he can. Ben won't give me money and I don't work. Ben won't let me. I can't afford a lawyer Dan." Phil says. I know my dad will refuse to make him pay for services.

"Phil please, let me talk to my dad. He won't make you pay. He will understand" I plead

"No, not yet. Please don't tell him anything yet" Phil says.

"Ok, but in the meantime, you have to confront Ben. If you don't do it, I will. I say

"O-O-Ok" Phil said nervously. He was so nervous he stammered. I felt kinda bad.

"I can come and be there with you if you want" I offered. I wanted to make sure Ben wouldnt hurt Phil.

"No, I need to do this on my own. I know he is going to get violent. I don't want you hurt." He says to me. "Ok, I love you" I say. I lean and kiss him. He kisses me back. Phil turns away

"I promise I will talk to him" Phil says.

"Dan, if something ever happened to me, would you miss me? Phil asks

"I couldnt imagine a life without you. Why you asking?" I said.

"Im a little nervous. I will be fine" he says with a smile. He walks away. I watch him as he walks away.

Phil's POV:

BEN, YOU ARE A LIAR" I yell.

"Why you calling me a liar, you faggot" Ben snarled

"I visited dad. He told me that mum shot herself. His fingerprints was on the gun because he tried to take the gun away. He said you saw what happened! You lied to police." I sau angrily.

"Oh and you listen to everything our insane father says" Ben snapped.

"Well its your fault that dad is in Jail! You lied to the police" I yell back.

"You wouldn't know, you were fucking 11 years old. You worthless, piece of shit faggot!" Ben yelled.

This time that comment hurt. Was I really worthless?

"Shut up" I say.

"Where is your little faggot boyfriend to protect you this time?" Ben snorts.

"You are horrid person Ben." I retort.

"Yea and our father is better? You love him and yet, he takes this long to tell you the truth. What father you have." Ben snarls

"Hes a better man than you" I say

I feel Ben's fist punch my jaw. The pain is unbearable. Ben then pushes me to the ground and kicks me as hard as he could. My back was killing me and I cannot move. I cannot move my jaw. I am emotionally drained. This makes the pain even more unbearable. I cannot help my father. I am worthless. I am tired. I cannot stand the pain. The pain is unbearable. There is only one way out. It will end it all. There are so many options to achieve it. I can plan and if my first plan doesnt work. I can have backup plans. Dan. Yes I love dan. Dan will be upset. He cannot imagine his life without me. It pains me to know what I will do to Dan. But, there is no other way out. I have to do this. Even though I know what I'm doing to him. I have to leave him when I do this. Dan's life will be so much better. He will have no drama. He won't have to worry. I have to leave him. I hope he can forgive me for what I am about to do.  I don't want Dan to be the one to find me. He cannot be the one to find my body. But, hes the only one I want to find me. I pick up my phone and call Dan. I can't talk to him. I hang up. I end up just texting him just two words.