Catch Me Before I Fall (A Phanfiction)

Chapter 39

*Phil's POV*

That night drunk Peter and Nina stayed over was a hectic night, they made a huge mess which Dan and I had to clean up and then I had that panic attack. Its been a week since that happened, Dan was really careful with me trying to make sure I stayed calm all the time, Nina was normal around me but Peter was still acting strange. Before he left that day he was staring at my visible scar I got annoyed and told him "Take a picture Peter. It lasts longer" he looked away and left. I feel like a freak around him, it may be overly sensitive of me but I did not like people staring, it makes me feel worse than I already do. I was sitting upstairs in our room, Dan was downstairs, I heard music so I got up to see what it was, when I walked downstairs I realized it's Dan playing the piano. It always calmed me down when he played the piano, he looked adorable and so concentrated, I sat next to him and kissed his shoulder, he smiled at me and continued playing. He stopped playing and then wrote something on the note sheet before playing another note "What are you doing?" I asked him "I'm writing something for you, but its not quiet done" he said still concentrated on the paper "Really? Can I hear?" I asked "Its not done yet Phil" he laughed silently "Can I hear a bit?" I pouted and he nodded. He played what he had so far, it was beautiful, I stared at his face which was full of concentration, in the end he erased something on his paper and wrote something else down "Sorry the last bit was awful" he mumbled "No it was beautiful" I smiled kissing his cheek, he smiled back and went back to writing and playing. I stared at him for a while and started kissing his cheek, he smiled at me again and then I kissed his ear, then cheek again and his jawline "Phil stop trying to distract me" he laughed softly "I'm not doing anything" I mumbled kissing his neck. I put my leg on both sides of the long piano chair and pulled Dan close, he eventually gave in, he wrapped his arms  around my neck and kissed me, I kissed him back "I thought you were busy" I laughed pulling away "you're distracting" he mumbled kissing my neck and unbuttoning my shirt "Oops" I said innocently before pulling him in for another kiss, he tried pulling me up to move to the couch and his hand accidentally lightly hit my chest "I'm so sorry oh my god did I hurt you?" He freaked out, I didn't answer and instead started kissing him again, I pulled his shirt off and started kissing down his neck to his shoulder making him moan slightly. "Uh, I'm sorry bad time" Peter said walking in on us awkwardly, his eyes instantly were on my scar "Are you fucking kidding me? Can you not stare" I said rudely putting my top back on as Dan did the same "Phil.." Dan whispered. "I'm sorry, I-I needed to talk to you, tell you the reason why I've been acting the way I do" Peter said looking away "What?" I asked "When Nina told me what happened to you, she told me you were in bad shape and the doctor said that it would be a miracle if you survived" he said softly "So?" I said in a harsh tone "I-I was afraid you were going to die, I was afraid that maybe I wouldn't make it home in time to say good bye" his voice was shaky, Dan sat next to him and put his hand on his shoulder. "That's no fucking reason to stare at me like I'm a freak" I said "I know, and I feel horrible for making you feel that way but I was scared okay" Peter was crying now, I've never seen him cry but it doesn't matter he was wrong "Yeah sure you feel horrible" I said plainly "Phil, stop it" Dan said staring at me in shock. "Whatever" I said plainly and went upstairs expecting Dan to follow me but he didn't. He came up ten minutes later "You were being harsh Phil" he said "Why don't you go talk to Peter" I said rudely "He went home, he was hurt Phil" Dan said "I'm hurt too that my own fiancé doesn't take my side" I cried "You sound like a child Phil, its not about taking sides! Peter was trying to apologize he was just scared to lose you" he raised his voice slightly. "He needs to stop it. And you need to take my side" I raised my voice too, Dan took a deep breath "Okay Phil, tell me what this is really about" he said calming down. "Its about people staring at me like I'm a freak and about us" I said sobbing slightly "What about us?" He asked me "We get into fights and we never get alone time" I said "We were alone for a week Phil" he said softly "But we barely spoke, we barely did anything" I looked down, Dan sat next to me "Babe you were ill I wanted you to rest" I said softly stroking my cheek, I moved his hand away "D-dont" I looked away, he sighed and got up, he walked towards the door and locked it "There now no one will interrupt us" he said softly sitting up on the bed, I looked away and he kissed my cheek and then jaw line, I looked at him and grabbed the collar of his shirt and pulled him in for a kiss, he kissed me back and then kissed my scar softly, I hated when people pointed my scar out or stared but it drove me crazy when Dan kissed it. I tugged at his jeans as he kissed my collar bone and neck which made him giggle, he took his phone out of his pocket to put aside "Um Phil.." he said in a serious tone "What?" I asked "There's like 5 missed calls from Nina, I'm concerned" he showed me and I rolled my eyes "You're always concerned about everyone else, you said no interruptions this time Dan" I said "Phil something might be wrong, I should really call back" he sounded really worried "Have fun" I said getting up leaving the room and went downstairs into the TV room. I felt bad though, what if something was seriously wrong.