Catch Me Before I Fall (A Phanfiction)

Chapter 44

*Peter's POV*

We dragged the two into their house, they were awful drunks and were difficult to get away from each other because they were literally all over each other. "Guys seriously just stop for two minutes" I sighed "Why are you so bitter Peter" Phil pouted "Maybe he's jealous" Dan giggled "Do you want kisses too Peter?" Phil asked "No! You just stay seated on that couch" I said sternly and Nina giggled. "No need to be so mean" Phil pouted "Just try it" Dan giggled and then kissed me, not on the cheek, on the lips he full on tried making out with me "Dude what the hell" I shouted moving away "Don't pretend you didn't like it" Dan giggled "He liked it" Phil said. I looked at Nina she had her hand over her mouth and was trying really hard not to laugh. "Help me" I whispered "Hey I'm pregnant, doctor told me to take it easy remember?" She said smiling innocently "You sit over here" I said to Dan sternly making him sit on the other couch. I looked over at Phil, seeing him ill made me really upset, that scar was a constant reminder of how he had almost died, not once but multiple times "What you staring at?" Phil asked "Nothing" I whispered looking away "Do you want to see my scar?" He asked me, I looked at him, Nina went upstairs and came back with blankets and set it on Dan and then Phil "Do you?" He asked me again "Go to sleep Phil" I whispered looking away again. Nina sat next to me and grabbed my hand she understood why I couldn't talk to Phil, why the scar bothered me, I gave her a small smile and she put her head on my shoulder. I looked over at the guys and they were fast asleep.

*Phil's POV*

All I remember was driving to the club with Dan and him making an exception on alcohol, everything else after that was a blur. I woke up on the couch, how did I get home? My head was throbbing "Dan?" I called out "Hey you're awake" Nina whispered "Nina? Did you bring me home?" I asked sleepily "Yeah, Peter and I ran into you and Dan, you had a little too much fun so we brought you home" she explained handing me a glass of water and Advil. I looked over at Dan who was awake too now, he got up and sat next to me "Never again" he muttered rubbing his head, I laughed silently and kissed his shoulder. "No more PDA please" I heard Peter groan "You two are awful drunks" and Dan laughed "We can't be that bad" he said "You are! You two tried kissing me and Dan you actually did" he said cringing, I looked at Dan awkwardly and he blushed "I do not remember that, but how was it?" He asked "Weird" peter said, I kept my laughter in, I did not want to laugh around him not after how he shut me out. I caught Peter staring at me again "Take a fucking picture Peter, it lasts longer" I snapped "Sorry, its just..its gotten worse" he whispered looking away "I know it has, you don't need to remind me how ugly it is" I said angrily "Babe I'm sure that's not what he meant" Dan whispered but I ignored him "What is your problem. I didn't say anything like that" Peter said "My problem is that I'm dying and all you do is stare at my fucking scar! You don't bother or care to speak to me!" I yelled "I don't care? If I didn't care then I wouldn't have brought you home and stayed here until you woke up and we were sure you're okay" he yelled back "Peter calm down" Nina whispered. "Yes you don't care! You completely shut me out, you're a terrible friend you're no better than Zoe. And I feel sorry for your child because it will have a fucked up father" I said not hesitating. "Babe don't say that, please calm down" Dan said getting up putting his hand on my chest and I moved him away "Know what Phil. Just drop dead" Peter said coldly, taking Nina's hand and leaving the house. I was full of anger, some best friend he was "I'm sure he didn't mean that Phil, he's just scared and hurt" Dan started "Are you seriously defending him after what he said to me!?" I asked angrily "No no of course not, Im just saying I know he doesn't mean it" he said "You're on his side, wow Dan nice to know you got my back" I said bitterly "No Phil, that's not what I mean" he said softly pulling me closer, I pushed him away "Get off me Dan! Since you're on Peter's side why don't you just go with him?!" I shouted, he stared at me shocked. "Just leave me alone to die" I shouted "Babe don't say that.." he whispered tearing up "Its true Dan, I'd rather die alone and tonight" I said, he hugged me again "No.." He whispered and I pushed him away "I said get off me! I want to die Dan, I'm already dying and I would happily speed up the process myself" I yelled "Don't say that Phil, I'll die if anything happens to you" he whispered sobbing "I don't care what you do Dan! I just want to die! Just leave me to die alone" I shouted running upstairs, I looked around and saw an empty glass on the side table I threw it to the ground breaking it. I picked up a piece and made a cut, and then another and another. Dan ran into the room "Phil what are you doing!?" He shouted taking the glass from me "What the fuck Dan! Why are you stopping me!?" I cried "Babe you can't do this" he said softly stroking my cheek and I pushed him back "Go Dan! I don't want you here anymore I don't need you here I don't want to be with you any more! Leave!" I shouted. He froze and stared at me hurt, he turned around and then left.

*Dan's POV*

I left the house without saying anything, Phil said he didn't want to be with me anymore and didn't want me around anymore.  I went to Nina and Peter's place as it was the closest "Dan? What happened?" Nina asked worried opening the door inviting me in. "P-phil said h-he d-didnt w-want to be with me anymore" I sobbed, she hugged me tight "Wait what?" Peter asked confused "And he said he wants to die" I said "Dan I'm sorry" Nina whispered. "Why did you have to tell him to drop dead Peter! We were finally okay again and you ruined it and I defended you!" I cried "I didn't actually mean I want him to die!" He shouted and Nina hushed him. "Well now he said he wants to die even if it means killing himself" I said softly, Peter looked scared "L-look I'm sure he won't do it, he's probably lying and being over dramatic" he said "He cut." I said plainly "So, you cut too" he said I wanted to hit him "Phil only cut one time before this, when he wanted to kill himself Peter you remember that really well" I said still crying "Dan.." Nina whispered "Then why the fuck are you here?" He asked me "Because he kicked me out! And its your fault! What kind of best friend tells his friend to drop dead?" I yelled "What kind of person leaves their fiancé alone knowing that he's hurting himself" he yelled back "Peter that's enough" Nina said "No Nina I'm right, he knows what Phil is doing and he still left" I stared at him "H-he's right, I-I need to get back" I said getting up and leaving. I ran home as fast as I could "Please be okay Phil, please" I whispered to myself, I was out of breath as soon as I reached home, luckily I had my inhaler with me. "PHIL?" I called out, no answer, I ran upstairs to our room and found Phil passed out with more cuts on his arm "No Phil.." I whispered, he was still breathing so I pulled out a shirt and wrapped his arm trying to stop the bleeding, I need to get help, so I carried him downstairs into the car and to the hospital.

I waited in the waiting room for the doctor, I wish my parents were here but they were out of town. I got as soon as I saw the doctor "How's Phil?" I asked "He's alive, his cuts weren't deep enough to kill him but he is weak" he explained, my eyes filled with tears "C-can I see him?" I asked and he nodded. Phil was laying in a bed staring into space with bandages on his arm, he saw me and instantly looked away "Hey babe, how are you?" I asked him "Don't call me that" he said weakly "Phil.." I whispered "Why did you bring me here Dan you should have left me" he sobbed silently "I was scared, I couldn't just leave you" I said softly moving his hair from his eyes "I was ready to die Dan, I was ready to end the pain and misery" he said "No don't say that please" I said taking his hand and he pulled away "Just go away Dan, I don't want you here" he whispered "Phil.." I said "Leave before I call the nurse and tell her to send you away" he said looking at me. I got up not wanting to argue because he was so weak, I leaned in and kissed him on the lips softly "I really do love you, and I will do anything to get you back" I whispered, he looked away with tears in his eyes. I sat on the ground outside his room to keep an eye on him "I want you back babe" I whispered.

I don't know when I drifted off to sleep but I woke up to sounds of someone crying and screaming, Phil. I ran into his room he was crying in his sleep "Babe wake up" I said shaking him, he sat up "You were having a nightmare. Are you okay?" I asked wiping his tears away "I-Im fine Dan, j-just leave the room please" he sobbed "Phil you were crying in your sleep" I said softly "I'm fine, just leave" he said sobbing softly, I sighed and got up to leave "Wait.." he whispered grabbing my hand, I stared at him he made some room in his bed and I got in with him, he put his forehead on my chest and cried "Babe what's wrong?" I asked stroking his hair "I-Im sorry Dan, I-Im scared, M-my nightmare" he cried "Tell me what happened" I said softly "I-I lost you forever, Y-you said you didn't want anything to do with me" he sobbed "Babe its just a nightmare" I said remembering how Phil said he didn't want me. "Dan..please don't leave me. I-I know what I said but I don't mean it, please don't leave me" he sobbed "I won't ever leave you" I stroked his cheek "Yo you'll take me back?" he whispered "I didn't ever leave you in the first place" I smiled at him, he looked at me with tear filled eyes "Will you kiss me?" He asked softly, I softly pressed my lips to his putting my hand on his cheek and kissed him passionately he kissed me back we pulled away and then he snuggled up to me, I wrapped my arm around him and softly hummed in his ear until he fell asleep.