Meant to Be

Chapter 17

Lexie Pov:

It took me a while to figure out what just happened. Jackson kissed me, and he keep kissing me. I kissed him back, I was fine with it. It was delicate and immediately expressive.

At one point I pulled away and looked at Jackson.

- "I'm sorry I shouldn't be doing this"- he said and nervously stepped away.

I didn't want him to feel like this. I didn't mean to embarrass him, I just wanted to absorb the situation that had happened.

At his apology, I put my hand on his, I approached him, and this time it was me who pressed our lips together, placing a kiss.

Then everything was happening very quickly and as if through a fog. In one moment, Jackson took my hand and pulled me towards the on-call room. In the next one, he closed the door to him, and a moment later we sank into kisses. Moments later, the boy slammed me against the wall and I took off his shirt and unfastened his belt. He took off my shirt and helped unhook my bra.

A few moments later we were both naked on the bed side by side. This moment finally allowed me to forget all the hard times of this week. I lay there with a smile on my face and out of the corner of my eye I saw that Jackson was also quite pleased.

Indeed, I felt weird for just breaking up with Mark. But I needed someone to help me cut this out, and Jackson did it. God Lexie, it sounded like you were taking advantage of him now. That's not what I meant. Avery helped me a lot, but what happened a few minutes ago was not just for comfort. With Jackson I felt safe, he was very gentle and caring. I know I can always rely on him, rely on him as he does on me. But it feels so different, I don't even know how to describe it. It's not like Mark, but it's also not transient sex.

- "It was cool"- he commented on the whole event

- "You're right. It was very nice" - I expressed my opinion, staring him straight in the face. We looked at each other, shy smiles on our faces. It felt like I was in high school when I finally got to talk to a boy I liked. What? Lexie, you don't like Jackson ?! Or maybe there is something? I do not know myself.

- "It might sound weird"- he began, leaning on his hand - "But I guess I like you more than my friend"

I feel myself flush and start smiling confusingly. In the last few days my life is really crazy and more is going on than it could have been in these 25 years.

- "You are also not indifferent to me"- I replied shyly. We were looking at each other in silence again, when suddenly the boy put his finger on my face to his and leave another kiss.

Suddenly I realized what a shit I did to April. Friends shouldn't do that to themselves. She really likes Jackson, and I just slept with him. What should I do? Stay with Jackson and continue enjoying this pleasant moment, or just apologize and leave. Then he will surely ask why, such a sudden change of mind, and I cannot reveal a secret to April. You know what, Grey, you always know how to get yourself into trouble, then it's worse to get out of there. Now you have to face the consequences.

I moved away from the boy and I noticed his surprise on my face.

- "All right? Did I do something wrong?" - he asked, surprised by my behavior.

- "You are all very well. Jackson, you're a great guy and I care about you. What happened moments ago was surprising, but I liked it. But..."

- "But.... There's always some but" -he commented and moved away from me.