Meant to Be

Chapter 28

Lexie Pov:

- "I love this city"- I confessed, lying on the warm sand on the beach. - "It gives me so much good energy!"

- "That's why I live here" - said Amelia lying next to me, and then we both laughed - "When you have a bleak life, you have to live somewhere where you feel good."

- "When I finish my residency, moving here is first on my list"- I said with a smile on my face.

- "We invite you, sand and sun is enough for everyone" - Shepherd joked - "And what about your residency?"

- "What do you mean?" - I asked a little confused.

- "You're in your third year and on vacation. Don't take it badly, because I think the vacation will be useful to everyone, but when I was in residence, I never went on vacation because I was getting surgery. And you seem so too" - she expressed her opinion.

I still haven't told anyone where and why I'm here. It's been over two weeks since I've been here, and the only time I've ever contacted someone from Seattle has been Hunt to tell him that I am still staying. Back then, there were a lot of questions like: when are you coming back? Where are you? Meredith made me ask you if you are safe and are you sure not to come for you? And my favorite sentence: Lexie, we're all worried about you and want to help you, you can trust us.

As if I didn't know that. I know I bring up this topic often, but I am grateful for their support that they are able to offer me. But I don't think I want this sympathy. This trip made me realize that we will not turn back time. And we can either live happy and wait for what the future holds, or we can worry about the past all the time and be unhappy. So now and when I return to Seattle, I want to close everything that happened before I left in a black bag that I will never recreate. Mark will always be present in my life, at least until I am a resident of the hospital where he works. But I leave the matter of our relationship and breakup behind me. After all, I have nothing to do with him anymore, and neither do he with me.

I am starting to fill up a new page, surrounded by wonderful people, and all I have to do is find myself again.

- "I needed a little rest. I wasn't off work since the beginning of my residency and I had some time off so I decided to use it." - I told the truth, I didn't just reveal a few important information, but I didn't lie.

- "I already know that, but I don't think you're telling me everything. From the beginning, you might have said four sentences about Seattle, and that was the day I met you. Something's wrong here."

- "I came to cut myself off from rainy Seattle, that's it"- I said, nervous.

- "You don't have to be nervous. I don't force you to speak, but maybe you want to talk yourself out or something" - she tried to calm me down.

- "Sorry, that's not what I meant. I came to rest from the entire residency run, taking care of my father and the whole of Seattle in general. Aren't you fed up with LA?"

- "Oh, believe me. That's why I understand, but I preferred to ask to be sure that it was nothing more serious" - the brunette replied.

- "Let's finish talking about what we have enough, and let's focus on what cheers us up a little."

- "Are you thinking the same as me?"- she asked and wiggled her eyebrows.

- "Depends what great things you think about"- I replied and we laughed.

- "Oh about everything!"- she shouted, and everyone on the beach looked at us.

- "Same as me! Then let's do everything!" - I replied, and my mood immediately improved. - "Where do we start?"

- "Ice cream! And then shopping at the beach stands!"

- "Stands obligatory! And then coffee in our favorite coffee shop and lastly?"

- "Party at the bar!" - Amelia shouted

- "I don't know, I'm not sure if it's a good idea, we've been lately" - I expressed my opinion on this proposal.

- "If the last time you call five days ago, we are going for sure! No discussion!" - The brunette ordered me ironically - "Come on! You can't think so much about going to a party!" 

- "So be it!" - I agreed - "But only two shots!"

- "Well, it's enough for us to catch the vibe" - the girl probably commented and we both laughed - "Can I invite the rest?"

- "Yes, sure! You wouldn't even have to ask. I'm a stranger here and I took you from them, not the other way around."

- "Oh, believe me, sometimes they need such a break from me. You could say there are too many of me sometimes hah"- she replied sarcastically.

- "I can believe it"- I said taking my things, and we both burst out laughing again.

In fact, until I went to the bar, I spent time with Amelia. Shopping, lunch, a walk on the beach, gossip and all the rest of what makes us smile. Throughout this journey, I came back to life. Amelia and I spent time together day after day. Shepherd took the time off just so we could play together in LA.

She showed me this wonderful city full of joy and its best attractions. The whole trip is unforgettable. Not only that in great company, in addition to a beautiful place, I also forgot about all my problems. I was enjoying what I had right now, I didn't think about what would happen when I got back to Seattle. I didn't analyze how to tell April that I had slept with Jackson, or how to come face to face with Mark again. I lived in the moment and it gave me the happiness I needed.

Work forced me to make many sacrifices. Everything is planned in the hospital: the number of your shifts, what will you do when you get home, or the dilemma whether you can buy a new dryer, but at the same time, that you will have enough food until the end of the month. In addition, my relationship with Mark, who already wants to get married and start a family, limited me even more. When you are unable to make decisions or just rethink your life situation, life becomes unhappy.

And I'm not talking about the fact that I would be unhappy with Mark. Because I was happy, and I would be, but if I became a mother now, my inner self would tell me that now the child is a priority, and I wouldn't have time for myself. And I'm probably too young to stop having time for myself.

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A/N

Another chapter is behind us! 

Lexie and Amelia enjoy their time in sunny LA and have a great time. 

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