Meant to Be

Chapter 38

Lexie Pov:

- "Stupid question, and you know the answer, so I won't answer." - I said - "I want to get out of here because I'd rather not cry in three minutes. I can't let me fall apart again."

- "Sorry, I shouldn't be asking such questions,"- he said and looked at me with sadness in his eyes. - "How was it in LA? You were the first time, weren't you?"

- "It was great and I finally rested. I needed it. It was my first time anyway" - I replied - "And thank you."

- "For what?" - He asked, surprised, and I'm not surprised that he reacted like that.

- "Thanks for making sure someone came to get me,"- I said and gave him a smile.

- "You're welcome! I am worried about you and you will always be important to me. Plus, I can't watch you suffer."

- "I have the same with you,"- I confessed. - "Let's stop talking about it and oh. How are you? Something interesting?" - I asked, deeply hoping that he would say something about this woman.

- "We had to reschedule Baby Shower, it's in a two weeks. So you won't miss it hah," - he added and laughed so nervously at the end and I bared my eyes.

I completely forgot about this event, but well, if I want to leave the conflict behind me, I will have to go there. I will support all three of them as a friend. In addition, I realized that I would not get anything out of him about this woman. I don't know what I was counting on, because Mark is probably not such an idiot to talk about another lady in front of his ex, who still has feelings for him.

- "I will" - I said uncomfortably - "How much is left to labor?"

- "About 4.5 months,"- he said with a smile on his face.

- "You'll be a great dad,- I admitted confidently. - "This kid is lucky, it will have loving parents. Even one more, or maybe one day, if it works out for you, it will be two more. What does that mean? More parents mean more pampering hah."

- "It's all over between us?" - he asked after a moment of silence - "I know we were not supposed to talk about it, but I know that we both suffer and do not want us to stand in an unclear situation."

- "I do not know, for the moment I am closing the chapter entitled "Our Love" in a black bag. But sometimes you go back to the old stuff, sometimes you clean it up. Maybe this will also be the case with us." - I said, - "And you think it's all over?"

- "I think we have to make ourselves aware of our priorities. Maybe, as you say, the break will serve us well and someday our paths will cross again."

- "It's not what it looks like,"- I said, and Mark shot me a questioning look - "I'm ready, but I don't want to do it too soon. I can see all the time around us, these happy couples at the beginning, who move too quickly into the next step and fall apart. Alex and Izzie, George and Callie."

- "They just didn't fit a bit, hah,"- said Mark, and we both laughed at his words.

- "You are 38 and I am 25, which is a big age difference. Everyone is looking at us as if one of us is taking advantage of the other. But we know what the truth is. And know that I love you as I have never loved anyone. You make me feel safe and happy. But what I loved about our love is that ..." - I continued explaining, finally venting the words that I had wanted to tell him for so long - "That everything had its own pace and we had a chance, in a few years, to have the most stable relationship I have ever seen. But since last year things are starting to happen too fast. I need time. I am young and I still have so much to do."

- "Lexie, you don't have to explain any of this. I understand what I did." - he confessed.

- "Shut up and listen! I also know what I did. But you can see that we love each other this way brings us to a point where we cannot blame each other. Even though I did it in a visible way, I can't explain it myself." - I said - "I want you to live on. With your baby, Callie and Arizona, and maybe some woman you will meet or have met before. Know that I will always be here for you and that you can count on me. Let's be friends and support each other. At least for now."

- "I agree with it. You can count on me too and I know things could be different .."

- "Don't overthink what would happen if. We live what is now and we will not change the past. We have to live with the mistakes we both made, and that's it." - I said.

We stood there for a long time, staring at each other. I wish I could feel his lips against mine. But I knew it was inappropriate. That we're friends now and friends don't kiss. But it was too strong. I couldn't stand it and walked over to him. I grabbed his neck and pushed into his mouth. The kiss lasted a good while, and Mark gave it back.

- "Sorry, I shouldn't have,"- I said when I finally got a grip on myself

- "Do not worry. I wanted to do it myself too," - he said.

- "I had to have this last kiss like that,"- I said and looked down at my legs.

Suddenly the door opened and I breathed out, I don't know which time that evening. I was about to get off the elevator and head for the exit when I suddenly stopped. I turned to face Mark and looked him honestly in the eye.

- "Thank you for the best time of my life,"- I said and left the hospital leaving my head with more thoughts.

I wasn't upset that things turned out that way. Apparently they had to. And like I said, I want to explain everything and start over. And it seems to be going well so far. Hopefully it will stay that way and that fate won't bring another unplanned hurricane into my life. 

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A/N

Lexie and Mark have a conversation while locked in a broken elevator. They kissed each other. 

How do you think Lexie and Mark will go in two different directions? Did that kiss mean nothing? What will happen next?

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