You're a Monster | Chenji

XLVII

Jisung started his narration in front of his friends. Taeyong let him go and they all got comfortable to listen to Jisung as soon as he started.

'I... I saw Chenle for the first time when we were both kids... I immediately fell for him. He was just... so beautiful... I thought I'd seen an angel, but I was afraid of showing myself because I thought he'd be scared of me.' Jisung said.

'Well shit. I think you should be the one afraid of him, though.'

'Taeyong, let him speak.' Doyoung made him shut up for the younger to continue.

'He looked so fragile I felt the urge to protect him. It all started with two of his bullies. I beat them up. I thought I was just angry at them for being bullies, but soon I realised it was the fact they hurt Chenle that made me go mad. The next step was killing a man who wanted to take advantage of Chenle. At that moment it was just a coincidence, but from that day I started following Chenle because I was afraid people would try to harm him.'

'So you've always wanted to protect Chenle?'

'Then I saw a guy who clearly liked Chenle. They were so close I got jealous immediately. I kept telling myself I only wanted to save Chenle from a future heartbreak and murdered him.' Jisung ignored Jeno's question and continued with his story. 'One day, he caught me spying on him. I played it off as a coincidence, he had never seen my face before. We became friends. I tried to keep guys and girls away from Chenle because I didn't trust them. I knew Chenle was fragile and needed to be protected. I killed and beat up several people without Chenle knowing, if they talked bad about Chenle, or they were rude to him, sometimes it was just because they were too touchy and I was scared they would take him away from me.'

'Jisung... You know that's not healthy, right?' Jaemin said as he softly caressed Jisung's back.

'I know... But back then I didn't know. One day a guy kissed him, as a dare. I beat him up so badly and told him not to go near Chenle. He was so popular rumors about Chenle spread quickly. They treated him like dirt. I wanted to kill them all, but I knew I couldn't just kill Chenle's whole school. His father died in a car crash and his best friend went away, but everyone thought it was because Chenle was cursed. I became Chenle's curse. I ruined his reputation in order to protect him.'

'Oh god...' Baekhyun said. He covered his mouth as he listened to Jisung.

'One day... One day I saw four guys who were sexually harassing him... I lost control. This time, unlike all the previous times, I didn't wait until Chenle left. I couldn't. They would have raped him, and I couldn't allow that. I killed them, in front of Chenle. I killed four guys in front of Chenle... and the smell of blood made me lose it completely. I went completely feral I attacked Chenle! I almost killed him. When I realised, it was too late. Chenle was practically dead. I panicked, I was killing the one I swore to protect! I cowardly left.'

'You left a human half dead alone?!' Baekhyun said.

'I know I shouldn't have... I thought he was dead already. I thought I had killed him. Turns out he survived, and since he wasn't dumb it didn't take long for him to figure the whole story out.' Jisung let out a loud sigh. The rest of vampires were all speechless. 'When I met him this year, I thought I was hallucinating. I saw him with Yuta. That made my blood boil, to the point where... I... I killed yuta.'

Taeyong got up immediately and grabbed Jisung by the collar again.

'You fucking did what?!'

'I-I killed Yuta...'

Taeyong didn't think twice before punching Jisung on the face. Jisung spit some blood and remained there, not daring fight back.