You're a Monster | Chenji

LVI

'J-ji?' Chenle opened his eyes slowly, feeling dizzy. He rubbed his eyes as his vision became more clear.

'Chenle, you're awake.'

He was expecting to see Jisung. However, he was met with another pair of eyes instead.

'Kun? Why am I here?' They were in Chenle's room. He was laying on his bed and Kun was next to him.

'We saved you from the vampires. How are you feeling?' He handed him a glass of water.

Chenle drank to soothe his dry throat.

'I'm... fine.'

A part of him somehow wished he wasn't saved.

Why am I like this? That's such a crazy thing to wish, Chenle.

'Where are the rest?' He asked. He wanted to get up, but Kun prevented him from doing so.

'Do not move. You look so skinny. Did those vampires even feed you?'

'Kun, where are Yangyang and Yukhei?'

'Eat a little, you will-'

Chenle attempted to get up, but as soon as he did so his head started spinning again and he lost balance. Kun held him and laid him back on the bed.

'You should rest for a bit. The vampires drugged you and that's bad for your body.'

'But I want to see Yangyang and Yukhei...'

Those words made the older sigh.

'Fine. Stay here. I'll ask Yangyang to come.' Kun left the room, leaving Chenle alone for a while.

All of a sudden, he felt something wet on his cheeks. It didn't take long for him to realise he was crying. He wiped his tears, but his cheeks were soaked again seconds after.

Why... Why am I crying?

In seconds, he became a sobbing mess. Somehow, tears wouldn't stop coming out of his eyes. He felt a stab on the heart and a weight on his lungs that didn't let him breathe properly.

What's wrong with me? Shouldn't I be happy? I'm here, with Kun, Yangyang, Yukhei and the others. Why does it hurt so much? Why do I feel like something is missing?

He kept asking himself all those questions, but deep inside he knew the answer for all of them.

Jisung...

Chenle you incoherent piece of shit. You literally told him you hated him, yet you still have the audacity to miss him! What's your fucking problem?! He literally kidnapped you, he is obsessed with you! He is crazy!

Crazy... just like you.

He's crazy for loving you, but you're even crazier for loving him back.

How? How could you fall for your kidnapper? How could you fall for a vampire? How could you fall for a monster?

A monster who killed your friends.
A monster who traumatised you.
A monster who almost killed you.
A monster who murdered... those who wanted to hurt you.
A monster who stalked you... to keep you safe.
A monster who... stood up for you when his friends wanted to kill you.
A monster... who made sure you ate food and drank water...
A... monster... who loved you...
And... a monster... who stole your heart...