You're a Monster | Chenji

LXV

Following Johnny's advice was probably the worst thing he could ever do, and he knew it. Yet, he did it.

Just this once. One last time, I swear.

'You're so stressed, Jisung. You've been starving for the past days, maybe you should give in to your cravings for once and it'll help you feel better.'

That was what the pure blooded had told him, so he was now determined to give in to his cravings.

And what was his craving?

He jumped from one roof to another like his life depended on it. His muscles were screaming at him for behaving like an animal without having drunk a single drop of blood in the past days.

He arrived at his desired destination, clinging to the edge of the window and opening it from the outside. He knew that window almost by heart. He silently jumped in, making sure not to make any noise. He turned around to close the window and when he faced the bed again he heard a sound.

He froze. Did he get caught?

Sniffle.

Someone was crying in the room, and Jisung could guess pretty well who it was. He approached the bundle covered in a blanket that was on the bed, not really knowing what to do.

Do I run away?

Ugh... fuck it.

He softly uncovered the body under the blanket, and he saw that person he'd been craving for the past days.

He was ready to just blurt out any kind of excuse and run away from the room, but a hand got a hold of his wrist and stopped him from doing so.

'Don't leave. D-don't leave me again...'

They stayed in silence for a while, until the human spoke again.

'Jisung... W-why did you let me go?'

'I... I thought that was what you wanted...' Silence. 'You... you said you hated me, so I figured you would want to go back to the humans and-'

'Yukhei will die...'

'What?'

'Y-yukhei will die because of me! He b-became a vampire when you let me go... He's... not dead yet, but he will soon...' Chenle took a few seconds to breathe in. 'It's all m-my fault...'

'Don't say that-'

'But it's true!' Chenle whisper-yelled. 'It's all because of me. If it weren't for me Yukhei would still be human and alive. I hate it. I hate everything! I feel so bad because I caused all of this! I hurt everything and everyone that's around me, I hurt Yukhei, I hurt Yangyang, I hurt you and all of your friends, it's almost like I mess everything up! A-and I'm... I'm so sorry...' His voice cracked.

'Why are you sorry?'

'B-because... Because I told you I hated you and I made you feel bad on purpose... I... I wanted you to hate me. To hate me so much you wouldn't want anything to do with me. I wanted you to despise me as much as I wanted to despise you, because I'm a human and you're a vampire. Because it felt so wrong loving a vampire, but now it feels so wrong being a human.' Without noticing, Jisung had gotten closer to the human and was now on the bed, next to him, holding him in his embrace. 'I'm a liar, Jisung. I'm a stupid liar that only knows how to mess everything up!'

'Chenle... do you love me?'

The human broke down at the question, holding onto Jisung and crying against his shirt. The cold touch of the vampire made him shiver, but his heart felt warm inside when he hugged him. He nodded furiously at the question.