Tell Me What Is Love (an EXO's Chen Fanfic)

Chapter 18 - Stress

22nd February 2013

Host: And the winner of this week's song goes to...Girl's Generation-Pure19 with Gone not around Any Longer.

The host gave the award to you and the flowers to HyoYeon. After you came back from SM concert in Jakarta, you and your group were preparing for your comeback, I Got a Boy. While promoting for I Got a Boy, you and HyoYeon were preparing for a sub group debut with only the two of you. With so many things on, you barely have time to see JongDae. You even missed your wedding anniversary because you just didn't have time to meet up with him. SM still doesn't know the relationship between you and JongDae. Actually, hardly anyone knows. You took the microphone from the host and said your thank you speech.

You: Thank you to everyone that have voted for us. Thank you to Lee SooMan saesaeongnim for making this sub group. I really enjoy working with HyoYeon unnie. Thank you to our SONEs, SM unnies and oppas and everyone who has taken care of us. Lastly, HyoYeon unnie and I would like to apologise to our friends and familys for not visiting you often. We will catch up with you after all our promotions. I love you.

Your encore song started playing and you see SHINee on the bench, doing your dance move. After they dance, you hugged your brother really tightly. You were crying because you miss your brother so much. JinKi took your mic and started singing while comforting you. Fans were chanting and told you not to cry. To be honest, you have been slightly depressed because you have been practise constantly and hardly see your love one. MinHo got his phone and film you crying. Then JongHyun decided to make fun of you and took HyoYeon's mic to talk.

JongHyun: GaHeun-ar! Are you crying because you're happy you've won the award or are you crying because of JinKi hyung's horrible singing?

You laugh. JongHyun oppa always make you laugh. You took the mic and then said a couple of words.

You: I miss SHINee so much because I hardly see you guys.

Key: Just be honest that you miss your brother only.

The fans laughed. You felt slightly embarrassed so you hugged your brother again which made the fans scream.

HyoYeon: once again! Thank you SONEs for supporting us. Remember to support SHINee with Dream Girl. Also, remember to watch the music video! Just to give you a hint! One of the Girls Generation members participated in the music video! Go and check it out.

HyoYeon, SHINee and you bowed to the fans before leaving. Afterwards, you went to your company to put the award. You then went to the vocal room to practise your vocal. As you went to the level and walked into the room at the end of the hall, you saw that there's a boy crying in one of the rooms. You knocked on the door and opened it. You could hear the music was playing really loudly and saw BaekHyun sitting on the chair, crying.

You: BaekHyun oppa! What's wrong?

You walked over to the speaker and turn off the song. You walked over to him and sat next to him.

You: do you want to tell me your problem? Maybe i can help.

BaekHyun: no. I'm ok. I'm just having a hard time.

You: What's wrong? Did you get into a fight with your members?

BaekHyun: no. It's just that I have to change my singing technique and I am having a hard time.

You: It has been a while since you guys have a comeback....it's almost a year.

BaekHyun: yea I know. Our of our Chinese members isn't willing to come back. Hence, we are having a really hard time. The company wants us to change our concept.

You: you mean Kris oppa?

BaekHyun: yes.

You: You remind me of me a lot. I used to always cry after I finish my vocal training when I first debut. Before HyoMin sunbaenim, I used to have another teacher who will hit me every time I got a word pronounciation wrong. It was really tough. I would cry every time after he leaves. Just like you, I would put the music really loud and cry my heart out. Only after a while, when my stylist saw the bruises on my arm that my teacher has been hitting me. Therefore, I was changed to HyoMin sunbaenim.

BaekHyun: wow. That sounds harsh

You: It was. I'm kind of envy of you. You don't have comeback after comebacks and you get to explore more of the style that is more suitable for your group. For me, it was comeback after comebacks. I actually forgot the last time that I have a holiday. I'm sometimes depressed as well.

BaekHyun: how did you manage?

You: talking with friends of course. Kyu oppa and the Kyu line cheers me up. We have a group where everyone just complains about their schedule. It gets really funny. Then JinKi oppa helps me and cheers me up. You guys as well. I just love talking to you guys when I'm depressed.

BaekHyun: ahhhh. I see.

You: Your phone becomes your best friend. You might have seen your sunbae a lot but try to get their number so you can contract them. It'll make you less advice. You have TaeYeon's number right?

BaekHyun: yeaa...

You: great! Talk to her! I need to practise now. I'll talk to you later.

BaekHyun: ok. Thanks for your advice GaHeun.

You walked out of the room and enter your room. Then you turned on the speaker slightly louder and just cry. I miss him. When can I see him?