Brother's Best Friend by Roxie7714

▼Chapteter 47▼

*1 YEAR LATER*

*GUS'S POV*

"I don't really know where I'm tryna go but I know I wanna take you
When I'm on the road and I leave you alone, I just pray I don't break you
I was on the phone with her in the other room, not tryna wake you
When I'm on my own I will be sipping Patron trying to blame you
Now you're calling me crazy, girl I know
When you tell me you hate me, I know that you don't
Now you're calling me crazy, girl I know
When you tell me you hate me, I know that you don't
I would give it all back for you right now, I could never forget you
Runaway from me, try to runway, but I ain't gonna let you
And I can hear my heartbeat sounding like the bass drum
I said baby don't stall with the fuckin' and the makeups
Nah, I'ma take the long way home
Got a couple hunnid missed calls in my phone
Now you're calling me crazy, girl I know
When you tell me you hate me, I know that you don't
Now you're calling me crazy, girl I know, girl I know
When you tell me you hate me, I know that you don't
But when you tell me that you love me
I put trust in you, don't judge me
I'm just going through some shit right now
And I don't wanna let you down
I don't wanna let you down
No, I just wanna to leave this town
Sometimes I feel like everyone hates me
Now you're calling me crazy, girl I know
When you tell me you hate me, I know that you don't
Now you're calling me crazy, girl I know, girl I know
When you tell me you hate me, I know that you don't"

I sang my newly released song again for the crowd in front of me holding back tears thinking about her. The last time i saw her was in a casket and i was still in denial. It wasn't untill she was under the ground and i put flowers on her grave i finally realized the only girl i'll ever truly love was not by my side anymore. As i thought of that i couldn't stop the tears from rolling down my face. All i could do was cry even if it has been a whole year since. I popped a xanny, drank some water and got back on stage.

I absolutely hated the fact that she made me fall for her over and over again. Every day with her pulled me in deeper into a feeling of obsession that i couldn't control. Now every day without her i feel further away from her and she's out of my grip. All i wanted to do was be by her side forever because we felt the same. She understood me and she understood my songs. Now every time i sing them there is always a phrase that resembles her. She's making me go crazy. She haunts my thoughts and makes death so tempting to me. All i ever want is to be with her maybe it will be better to die, i don't even want this life anyway. My songs were the only thing that helped me cope with life and now she's in them. I regret writing songs about her sometimes, because i'll never see her face when she listens to them for the first time. All i want is her...