Brother's Best Friend by Roxie7714

;Chapter 49;

I rented a car and started to get lost in the city. I don't know where i was supposed to be right now but i was close to my limit and i was loosing it. I needed to leave for now. I only have a couple shows left. I kept telling myself that so that i could see that it's almost over. Then i could go and distance myself from this for a while. I could disappear and write more songs about her. Oh. Her. Why does my life still revolve around her if she's already dead?

*TIME SKIP*

I eventually went back to the bus i was sitting there getting high off of whatever u could find. At this point i knew i was being reckless but i didn't care, she wasn't here to stop me. Maybe i'll see her soon. I felt that feeling in my chest when i played my new song for some people sitting in the bus. They gave me drugs so i didn't mind. I sat there and listened to the lyrics trying not to cry. It was hard because of course i also wrote this song about her, but based on how shitty my life is too.

"I know that it hurts sometimes, but it's beautiful
Workin' every day, now you bleedin'
Through your cuticles

that's ironic either of us never got to work would we know?

Passin' through a portal as you're
Sittin' in your cubicle

i guess it applies to how much she loved dancing and how much i love making music.

Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful
Tryna keep it cool at your grandfather's funeral
Findin' out eventually the feelin' wasn't mutual
You were not invited
'Cause you're nothin' like the usual

fuck. we really killed someone over that?

Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful
You wanna see your friends
But you're stuck inside a hospital
Doctor walks in and he tells you that it's terminal
Tumor on your brain and they say it's inoperable

the reason i lost you

Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful
They'll kill your little brother and
They'll tell you he's a criminal

was because

They'll fuckin' kill you too
So you better not get physical
Welcome to America, that type of shit is typical
Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful
Wake up in the mornin'
Now you doin' the impossible

our lives

Find out what's important
Now you feelin' philosophical
When I die I'll pack my bags
Move somewhere more affordable

were too

Isn't life horrible? I think that life is horrible

fucking

You think she's adorable
She thinks that you're intolerable
You think you can do it
But your chances are improbable

messed up

Once you feel unstoppable, you run into an obstacle
Isn't life comical? I think that life is comical
And if you ever need a friend then you got me
And in the end, when I die, would you watch me?
And if I try suicide, would you stop me?

these people won't stop me

Would you help me get a grip or would you drop me?

you would've

Runaway, make friends with the moon
Why you trippin'? You'll be with your friends soon

and you're not here

There comes a time everybody meets the same fate
I think I'ma die alone inside my room

and i will

Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful
Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful
Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful
Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful"

Rethinking everything al i wanted to do was sleep. I kicked the people out and i turned off the light and sat down. I started crying nonstop. Soon enough i was asleep. After a while i couldn't feel anything. Then i saw her.