I'm in love /Q.G/ part 2 (:

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the next morning i wake up wrapped in Quintons arms for once not cold. i look at him and just start crying pushing him away from me and trying to hit his arm

Quinton: hey hey, chloe what happened?
me: "im sorry" i cry
Quinton: "why baby" he whined bringing me closer and kissing me on the head
me: im sorry for ruining your life
Quinton: what do you mean?
me: i broke all the wedding glasses and cut myself again
Quinton: it's okay, just promise me to never hurt yourself again
me: "i cant" i continue to cry
Quinton: what? why?
me: because it's the only thing that relieves my stress
Quinton: baby, you can't hurt yourself because youre stressed. there's other ways to resolve the problem
me: "i already tried" i start hyperventilating
Quinton: hey, calm down
i push him
Quinton: no chloe, you need someone right now. stop pushing me away im tryna help
me: l-leave me a-alone.

Quintons Pov:

i lay her down facing me
me: blow on me, then im gonna blow on you, when you're ready again you're gonna blow on me until you calm down

she blew on me lightly as she was still trying to breathe

i blew on her lightly pushing her hair behind her ear

she tried to blow again but she was trying to catch her breath so nothing really came out. she looked at me like she was about to get in trouble

me: it's okay, just try again bear

we did this until she stopped and could breathe. i leaned up onto her and kissed her forehead

me: ok now i'm gonna give you a shower

i pick her up like a baby and bring her to the bathroom carrying her like a baby. i undress her and put her in the shower. i begin to wash her body and hair. when i got to her wrist, she flinched

me: im so sorry bubba
Chloe: it's fine

when i finished washing her, i grabbed a towel and started to dry her with it. i dry her hair and kiss her cheek.

me: all clean! see? there's other solutions, you don't have to cut yourself from stress.

she stays quiet

i put a fresh clean outfit on her and take her out to eat. i knew she wouldn't eat a lot but she was losing weight fast from starving herself for almost a week and losing blood so i wanted to try to get her to eat as much as she could.

i brought her to go to the chickfilA drive thru since i couldn't trust her home alone knowing she's gonna cut herself again.

i ordered the food and gave her it. she didn't eat as much as i wanted her to but i didn't want to force her to eat anymore

me: fuck. bear i just remembered i have a meeting for work. i have to take you home but i'm gonna ask one of the boys to watch you so you're not alone and nothing bad will happen.
Chloe: i'm fine by myself. i won't cut myself

Chloes Pov:
me: "i'm fine by myself. i won't cut myself" i lied
Quinton: baby are you sure?
me: mhm
Quinton: okay but if i come home and you do, you're in huge trouble
me: okay

he brought me home and i went on instagram.

i saw a lot of people posting pictures of their new born babies which made me cry.

me: "my stupid body" i cried punching myself in the tummy

my food then came up and i ran to the toilet and threw it up still sobbing.

me: "I JUST WANT TO FUCKING SEE MY BABY" i run downstairs and look around for the razors. after a couple minutes, i reached up top and found one

me: if my baby can't be here with me, i'm gonna be up there with her.