I'm in love /Q.G/ part 2 (:

💙Kayden Parker Griggs

Febuary 28th
2 am
Averys pov

I've been propped up in the bed for 2 hours with awful contractions
Me: please where's cooper holy shit

Arden: he's coming baby just hold out a little longer
We waited until 3 am
When cooper showed up
And we rushed to the hospital
To find out I was 8 cm dilated

And soon I was 9 and 10
Arden: do you wanna wait for them
Me: no no no, I'm ready Arden
He called the nurse who brought the doctor
And I went into labor
Arden was so great helping me and letting me squeeze his hands
And at 5:17
I had pushed him out
And Arden went to cut his umbilical cord

And they laid him on my chest
Leaving us to be with him
Me: oh my gosh his eyes Arden
Arden: he's so cute
He kissed my head
Arden: you did so good ave I'm so proud of you
Me: do you wanna hold him
Arden: I do but you deserve time with him it's okay baby
Me: he has your eyes a
Sterling: hello!! I'm here oh my god
Me: hey
sterling: that was so fast
Me: I know
Sterling: I wanna see his little face
She came over
Sterling: awee he's adorable
Arden: sterling that's weird he looks like me
Sterling: no your way uglier then him
Me: do you wanna hold him
Sterling: right now?
Me: yeah
I smiled
Sterling: well sure
She held him and he gripped his hand around her finger
Sterling: oh my gosh he's so cute I'm dead
Arden: let me hold him
sterling: why haven't you?
Arden: because I was just waiting
He took the baby and he started crying
Arden sat down on the couch with him
And he eventually stopped crying
I had been talking with sterling
Sterling: oh my god he's asleep
Me: what
I looked over seeing Arden and our baby asleep on the couch

Me: wait awe take a picture that's cute
Sterling: bitch your the one that pushed the baby out and he's asleep
Me: he had a game last night we're lucky he made it home in time
Sterling: oh Okay I'm sorry cooper took forever I was breast feeding and I'm clogged right now it's just hell
Me: it's okay it was 2 am
Sterling: still I'm sure you wanted to get here
Me: no we got here on perfect time 
Sterling: okay good
We talked for a little longer before she insisted I went to bed
Me: if the nurse comes he can go um get circumcised and the things she need to do
Sterling: okay sleep well
I went to sleep for a good 3 or 4 hours
And when I woke up to Arden naming our baby
Me: hm what's happening
Arden: well we already talked about it so
Me: wait what
Arden: his name
Me: oh
She wrote on the board
Kayden Parker Griggs
I love his name
But it really upsets me
Sterling named her kids after some of Chloe's family and I don't have any family like that to mean anything to me
It's just sucky I don't get those family names and stuff
But it's okay I guess
I have Arden and Harper and Kayden
This is my family
I'm okay with that, I should be
Something deep down in me wants a mom here with my kids to be with them
To get to know them but I don't know if I can submit my kids to that torture
Like?
They beat me
Hurt me
Degraded me
Yelled at me
Shit that people should never do go there kids and I don't know how they'll be around my kids I promised myself they'd never be allowed near me or them ever

But some type of stupid fucking emotions made me cave

When I posted on my Instagram that o was expecting Kayden
She reached out to me
And I gave in and invited her
This will be interesting
But here she is

Helen: hi honey
Me: hi
Helen: how are you doing
Me: I'm good
Helen: well you look great
Me: thanks
Helen: hello Arden it's been so long
Arden: mhm
Helen: is this him?
Arden: yep
Helen: can I hold him
She looked to me
Me: um yes if you be gentle he just came back from surgery
Helen: oh my gosh for what
Me: a circumcision
Helen: oh why would you do that to this poor baby
Me: because it's sanitary
Helen: mm well, your decision not mine
She shrugged
Ugh
I already regret this