I'm in love /Q.G/ part 2 (:

Goodbye? So soon

Recap:
We got to the hospital and we went to Bryce's  room

And he looked awful...

Bryce hasn't woken for three days
And I'm losing like I'm so extremely worried he's my brother man he's all I have left of my parents and my family every childhood memory

I sat in his hospital room crying as quinton comforted me
Quinton: it's okay baby he'll wake up
Me: quin, you don't know that for sure
Quinton: your right we don't but we gotta believe he will and he'll have a chance
Me: mmmmmm quin
I pulled to hug quinton so tight
Me: I can't live without him quinton
Me: you don't even understand the times he's physically saved my life and this could be his last day
Quinton: I know baby I know I know
Me: he's all I got q
Quinton: you have me baby and the kids and josh and Jaden and Kio
Me: I mean my like my old family he's all that's left from that all my memories are with him
Quinton: I know this is a big deal and I don't know exactly how it was back them but I'd want to forget that
Me: quinton that made me who I am I'm thankful for that honestly
Quinton: and I couldn't be more grateful of who you are baby but
Me: so you want him to die
Quinton: no no no ofcourse I want him to live he's a great friend and brother in law but I'm saying your reasons for being upset aren't good, he's your brother, he's helped you and loved you and been there for you and supported you for 37 years but you'll always have the memories of him and with him
I rolled my eyes
And the nurse walked in
She checked him
Me: how is he
Nurse: well it's been 4 days so he's doing better then we thought but he doesn't look good, he's fighting his hardest so we just have to see
Me: oh
Nurse: if you want any food the cafeteria is open
Me: thank you
Nurse: of course I'll be back soon
She left
Quinton: chlo you should get some sleep
Me: I'm okay
Quinton: it's been 16 hours just rest your eyes come here
He pulled my head on his chest
Me: what about Eva or Grayson
Quinton: they'll be okay baby Bryce will be okay
Me: I hope so
I prayed on his chest
Me: promise me quinton that will never be you
Quinton : I promise baby I'm here for you and with you forever
Me: promise me you'll be safe and careful I say I can't live without Bryce and I'm sure it'll be hard when he's gone but I'd be utterly lost without you, I need you to let me die first, promise me please
Quinton: I promise we'll die together
Me: no the kids need one of us they need you more rowen and Brently do especially
Quinton: I don't want you to die before me I don't wanna live a day without you chlo we'll die together
Me: please don't say that quinton I don't want the kids to loose both parents it's the hardest thing to deal with to have no one to direct your choices or say that's a terrible decision
Quinton: let's just let it happen how it happens okay
I closed my eyes on his chest
Me: I love you more then anything
Quinton; I love you too baby take a nap and it'll be okay
He brushed my hair back causing me to quickly fall asleep

I woke up to loud continous beeps and nurses rushing in
Me and quinton quickly jumped awake as I screamed asking what was happening
One nurse coming to comfort me
And I felt tears flood my eyes
Nurse: mama he's gonna be fine
Me: really?
The doctor yelled for things to be brought to him
Me: what's happening
Nurse: ma'am he's going into severe heart failure and they're doing all they can't to revive him
Me: he's dead?
Nurse: not exactly but we don't know for sure the doctor need you to move into the waiting room
Me: no I won't leave him
Nurse: mama you have to the doctor needs to work to help him
They forced me and quinton out of there
Maybe a hour at most went by
Before the doctor came out
Doctor; ma'am sir
He acknowledged us both
As I internally prayed to god
Doctor: I'm very sorry we've done all we can do, he's gone
Fuck oh fuck
Fuck
Fuck
Me: he's dead
Doctor: yes ma'am I'm very sorry his heart had an overreaction from the medication we were giving him and he had a heart attack
Me: oh my god
The doctor walked away as I cried to quinton
Quinton: he's okay baby he's safe now
I nodded
Quinton: shhh shh it's okay chlo he's watching over
Me: I wanna go see him
Quinton: I'll ask the nurse
He kissed my head
Quinton: she said we can Cmon
He helped me up as I walked to his room
How his body changed in the last hour
He was white and puffy
I held his hand and kissed his head
And I prayed over him
For god to keep him safe for him to protect me and quinton and the kids and his kids and my babies in heaven he nieces in heaven with him
Tears ruined my face
I prayed that he'd be okay
And let go
Me: I I don't want to see this anymore
Quinton: there um there sending his body to the funeral home and uh we'll take care of it tomorrow
I nodded
And we went to the car
And I just cried until we got home