Deeply (IN LOVE SERIES #2)

Kabanata 24

Arceli Angeles: Please be aware that this story was written poorly. This was written a few years ago. Maraming error, loopholes and whatsoever error na makikita niyo

Again, this story was written poorly. Pwede niyo pong i-drop kung hindi niyo po bet hehehe.

Thank you!

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In Love Series 2: Deeply

Kabanata 24

"Lalaban pa ba ako sa kaunting pag-asa na mayroon ako o susuko na ako dahil pagod na pagod na ako..."

Simula noong araw na iyon, palagi na sila sa Casa. Lagi ko silang nakikita na kasama ni Papa. Napapansin na rin iyon ng mga pinsan ko pero wala silang kibo. Ofcourse. Who would dare question my father? Ako nga lang yata ang nakagagawa noon.

I tried to talk to my father many times but he always refused. Laging may mahalagang gagawin at walang oras para sa akin. Funny how he doesn't have time for me but he has plenty of time with the Tolentinos. At doon ako lalong nagtanim ng sama ng loob sa pinakamamahal kong ama.

I just want to clear things. I just want to clarify these issues circulating all over Padre Garcia dahil hindi na iilan ang nakakapansin noon. Maging ang mga taga labas ng Casa ay nagtataka na kung bakit laging kasama ni Papa si Miriam Tolentino. Some says it's for the business but some says it's more than that.

Pero sa nakikita ko, mukhang higit pa sa negosyo.

"Can we talk Papa?" it was after dinner when I approached him again. Nangungusap na aking mga mata at nagsusumamo para kahit kaunting oras lamang ay kausapin niya ako.

He looked at his wrist watch before glancing at me coldly. "I don't have time. Can't it wait?"

Nagyuko ako at pinigilang umiyak. Ang tagal ko nang naghihintay ngunit hindi pa rin niya iyon napapansin. I inhaled deeply.

"Just five minutes 'Pa. I just want to ask something," mahina kong sabi habang nakayuko nag ulo. I never did this before. Noon kapag napapagalitan ako ni Papa. Taas noo pa ako at nakangiti kay Papa na parang wala akong ginawang kasalanan. Isang halik sa pisngi at lambing lang ang katapat niya noon.

I hate being in this situation where I need to beg for his attention and time. I hate this feeling because I feel neglected and ignored by my own father. I look like a five-year old girl who has abandoned by her father in the middle of nowhere.

I never beg. Begging is desperation. I was taught that a woman is born for elegance and sophistication not for desperation. Laging hindi dapat nagmamakaawa ang mga babae sa kahit anong paraan. But today, I've realised that women can be desperate too especially if she badly needs it.

"Do you have a relationship with Miriam Tolentino? Everyone is talking about that," I need an answer. I need the truth para mapanatag ako. He stared at me coldly. Akala ko sa pagkakataong ito, makakakuha ako ng kasagutan ngunit bigo pa rin ako. Umiling si Papa na para bang walang kwenta ang tanong ko. Tinalikuran niya ako at pumasok sa opisina ni Lolo.

I sighed deep. Maybe I should try next time.

The rumor regarding my father's relationship with Miriam Tolentino became the talk of the town. Pati ang buong PGC ay iyon yata ang topic. Sa tuwing papasok ako ay iyon ang ndidinig ko. Naiirita na ako dahil sa bawat paglingon ko ay iyong ang usapan. Naiirita na ako sa kagustuhan kong malaman ang totoo. Minsan, sinasadya kong dumaan sa mga estudyanteng nag-uusap para lang ipakitang hindi dapat pinag-uusapan ang buhay ng ibang tao.

I saw Mariam Tolentino near the business building one gloomy afternoon after my class. Kasama niya ang mga kaibigan. May kibat na libro at mukhang may hinihintay. Lalagpasan ko sana sila pero mukhang ako yata ang pakay.