They call me a criminal

Chapter 47

I saw the stares of everyone at that table, but I kept my head down. "I'm so sorry dear." Molly whispered. Madeye grunted, "he's back, they weren't lying."

"What do we do?" Remus asked. I felt Snapes eyes on me, which I met. They didn't look as cold as they usually did making me feel slightly more comfortable here. "Is there anything we can do right now?" Molly asked. Mad eye shook his head, "unless anyone's holding anything back." I scoffed as he looked at me, "what do you think I'm not telling you." He didn't answer just glared at me. "What are you holding back? You're supposedly one of the best aurors, but you let some pathetic death eater kidnap you, impersonate you all year, and almost get three students killed."

Madeye just continued glaring at me, "don't talk about what you don't understand." I smiled, "I think I understand." Sirius sighed, "let's just take a breath." I leaned back frustrated. "You've been through a lot Clara." Kingsley announced. "And we appreciate your help more than you could know. What happened that night, is an exceptionally awful tragedy, and sharing that, it was brave." I nodded, "thank you."

As they finished the meeting I slipped back outside observing everyone who walked by once again. I heard the voices of the aurors leaving turning to face them. "Goodbye sweetheart." Tonks smiled giving me a quick hug. Kingsley shook my hand, "you're a strong girl. Take care." I gave him a small smile, nodding at Snape as he walked by. Madeye stopped and stared down at me. "I should've done more when you were put in Azkaban." I looked up at him, "I know." He nodded, "I'm sorry about your friend."

I sighed, "me too." I pushed the door open heading back inside. When I heard Sirius' voice I stopped short. "Did you not see that. I can't even begin to understand how she's coping." I leaned against the wall. Remus sighed, "she's not, that would be why she doesn't want to see any of her friends, or Fred." I closed my eyes, and pushed off the wall walking upstairs.

I didn't want everyone feeling bad for me, because I already felt awful enough. The door opened and Fred sat down beside me on my bed. "I know you're going to be mad when I say this, but we listened to the meeting." I sighed putting my head in my hands. "We didn't get to see the memory obviously..." I turned to him, "get to see? Is that something you wanted to see? Watch it as if it was a movie or something. Cedric was one of my closest friends, and that was my father. That night isn't for entertainment Fred." He nodded, "I didn't mean it like that." I shook my head, "you have no fucking clue what happened. How terrified I was. I woke up in a pool of my own blood. I watched Cedric die, and I killed my own father. You're so fucking insensitive get out. This, is done. I don't want to be anywhere near you."

He stood up, "Clara, I just want to talk to you. I love you, I want to be here. I'm sorry. Please don't do this." I pointed at the door, "get out."

When he left I slammed my hand against the wall. I looked around the room, being here was insufferable. I opened the window and snuck out onto the outdoor staircase connected to the apartments surrounding the house.

When I finally hit the pavement I quickly made my way onto a bus, when I got off, I realized I was heading towards my old home. I slowly pushed the door open when I had arrived.

The pictures caught my eye first, I picked one up of my family, all four of us. The forced smiles were obvious, and our unhappiness stood out. I scoffed throwing the picture as hard as I could against the wall. I then grabbed every other one smashing each of them, eventually standing in a mountain of glass.

I crumbled onto the couch, feeling no emotions at all. My body felt empty, like all the blood had been drained. "Clara?" I heard a voice call. "Sirius?" I answered, watching him walk into the living room. He sighed looking at all the glass around the room. "Fred told us you broke up with him." I scoffed, "good for him." Sirius, grabbed my arm pulling me off the couch, I was half expecting him to scream at me, and the other half waiting for him to hit me as my father would have. Instead he hugged me, this was so unexpected I burst into tears. "I don't want to do this anymore Sirius." He shushed me continue to hold me, "I know, it has been a lot." I shook my head, "I don't know what to do. I'm so lost, and confused and hurt." Sirius sat down with me on the couch. "I'm going to help you. Let's just go back home? How does that sound?" I sighed, "alright."