All I Need- (gxg)

CHAP17-CONVINCE

BELLA'S POV:

"I DON'T WANT TO!" I slammed the truck door and rushed my way inside Noah's house. I heard footsteps following behind me. Why do we have to fight now? We just finished our last class of the day and came back home. All I need now is a nap, not a shouting match.

"COME ON BELLA, WE HAVE TO! YOU KNOW DAMN WELL, HOW MUCH WE LOVE MUSIC!" Zack shouted his nose flaring in anger. "I TOLD YOU I DON'T WANT TO PARTICIPATE IN THAT COMPETITION. I DON'T CARE ABOUT WHO LOVES MUSIC!" I fired back clutching the strap of my bag hard. 

I told him multiple times, I don't want to join the competition that Rose informed us about earlier. So, he started to sulk and now he is shouting at me over a competition. Laura's with him too. She said it would be better if we joined the competition.

"WHY NOT? GIVE ME A REASON," he crossed his arms giving me a death glare. Unable to state a reason, I shrugged and started to walk away. 

All of a sudden I felt Zack tugging my shoulder making me stumble back. 

"DON'T EVER WALK AWAY FROM MY F*CKING FACE WHEN WE ARE TALKING," he balled his fist.

He continued his screaming, "I KNOW WHY YOU DON'T WANT TO PARTICIPATE IN THIS COMPETITION. I'M SO FREAKING TIRED OF YOU. WHY ARE YOU SHUTTING DOWN ALL YOUR EMOTIONS BELLA? EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED IS IN THE PAST NOW. STOP HOLDING YOURSELF BACK FROM LIVING YOUR LIFE. I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU LOVE SINGING. BUT YOU ARE PUSHING EVERY SINGLE F*CKING ONE THAT IS TRYING TO HELP YOU! STOP HIDING AND FACE IT."

I was taken aback by his sudden outburst. I felt like I was being stung by a hundred bees right on my heart. 

How am I supposed to say I'm not feeling the pain and that is the reason I feel emotionless. But he was right, I was afraid to face my past. I was afraid of everything. No matter how hard I tried I just couldn't cry or feel the pain and I couldn't even face my past without getting scared about it. Is it my fault now? Anger started to overtake my senses.

"YOU DON'T F*CKING UNDERSTAND. I AM NOT FEELING THE PAIN! BUT PEOPLE LIKE YOU DON'T HAVE A FREAKING BRAIN TO UNDERSTAND THAT! I KNOW IT'S IN THE PAST BUT THE FEELINGS I'M FEELING NOW....EVERYDAY IS MOTHERF*CKING REAL." words left my mouth involuntarily. I didn't bother to look at him so I just turned around and walked to the nearest room. I slammed the door shut. 

No words could describe how broken, empty, hopeless I feel every second this past month.

I brought my knees closer to my chest sitting on the cold floor. I wasn't feeling anything. I don't feel tears wetting my cheek. Just feels like my heart just got ripped out of my chest.

We never really fight or argue but when we do it's always about things like this. I heard Laura calming Zack down and it was silent for a minute. Just then I heard the front door being shut.

Zack was right. I was too afraid to face my past. Afraid of my fa....him. Afraid of her. Afraid of going back to Edmonton to face them. The past that haunts me every night.

I sighed in defeat feeling the darkness consume me. 

ROSE'S POV:

I saw an angry Zack pushing Laura away who seemed like trying to calm him. Furrowing my eyebrows in confusion, I hopped off my car.

It's always Zack and Laura who will be fighting but why Laura is calming him down. Then it all came down crashing to me. I realized that Bella and Zack fought. But I can't make a conclusion on my own.

Quickly locking the car, I rushed my way towards their porch as I was trying to catch Laura's attention. She saw me and walk towards me leaving Zack in his truck.

"Hey, Laura is everything good?" I asked. Glancing back at Zack, she cut me off, "Rose I want you to check on Bella in a while. Make sure she is okay. Noah is not here. Zack and Bella had a huge shouting match. I gotta go. Bye."

She got in the truck left me standing there alone.

Scratching my nape, I glanced at the front door taking one last look. I will check on her in a while. I'm pretty sure she will be not in the mood to interact with people now.

I proceeded to walk to my front door.

(part 2 will be up soon!...don't forget to vote if liked the story so far and I'm feeling better now.)